nparis

I can't even look at myself in the damn mirror. I don't know why I did this. I'd say a moment of weakness and try pass it off as that. But I can't make excuses for myself, I'm a grown ass man making the wrong decisions. I think I'm just being self destructive, trying to ruin what I have to hit rock bottom or something stupid like that. I can't think straight right now. I... Why did I put myself in this situation ? Why didn't I get out of it when I realized what was going on. I saw it coming and I threw myself at it... I feel like a big old bag of shit... Tomorrow is going to be rough, if I even get my sorry ass to sleep