In a good way!
- confidence boost
When I just started my journey becoming a cammodel, I was really insecure because I was bullied a lot when I was younger and always was a outsider, atleast thats how I felt. When I did it for a month it really gave me a confidence boost when guys told me I was pretty. I am already in a relationship when I started this and my husband is great and super supportive. And somehow it was nice to hear from someone else that I looked good.
- more experimental towards fetishes and sex
When you first start its kinda weird, you dont know much about all of the fetishes there are and you learn each day something new. Which I find refreshing and it made me experiment a lot also in my personal sex life. Its funny when I look back to the start how awkward some things were in the beginning and to see how you grow as a person and as a (cam)model. And I think that it is a good thing, it makes you more open minded to how people really are and accept all of the weird, funny and awkward moments you experience along the way.
-Open book
Being a (cam)model made me change my mind about all kinds of things. At first I was really careful, but I think it is a good thing to let more people be involved in everything in life. Yes I am a (cam) model, but I am also a mom, wife and a normal person with morals and a normal life. Who believes in karma and has a black cat as a pet. I think if people are supportive of you as a (cam)model they should realise that. And not just think that we are always up for anything. Because most of the times thats not the case. We also need to do normal boring life stuff like doing the dishes and laundry. Have time with family and all that.
-Supporting other girls instead being jealous
When I started and saw some of the biggest girls I was so jealous. I wanted that! I wanted to earn as much as they do and the fanbase that they have. And its not that long ago that I realised, damn these girls worked their fucking asses off to become that big. And I kinda created respect and became supportive of these girls. Because SPOILER this is something you need to work your fucking ass of otherwise you dont achieve the goals you want for yourself in life and need to go back to the more boring jobs society offers.
-Acceptance of who I am and what I want from life
I became to accept the fact that yes I have a huge interest in everything that has to do with sex. I like to know peoples minds about sex and everything that has to do with it. I accepted the fact that hell yeah I like the attention and compliments I get from guys all over the world. It feels empowering. And I think every girl here can relate to that fact. So I made this choice in the beginning from being curious, not knowing what I wanted and who I really was and know I reflect more about who I am and what I want. It made me a stronger person than I was before.
-Grateful of people who support me or other girls in this industry
And yes!!! The people who are supporting me or other girls are fucking amazing cause to be honest without you guys we couldnt do what we do! And we keep doing it for you guys! Being grateful is something I learned. At first it was normal and all but when you hit a hard road like I did and you dont have all the time in the world like it used to be, you become grateful towards the people who are still there and support you no matter what! So thanks to all the guys and girls out here who support eachother. Keep doing that! As this is already a difficult industry to begin with.
The photo's in this blog are the previeuws for my set 'Don't worry, be happy!' That will hit MR in about two weeks!! Shot by @kaskuyken.
Hope everyone has a nice day!
@missy @rambo
Lots of love,
Nova Anne
