To be honest I think I'm a bit of late to learn to stand up for myself. When i was younger i always got bullied and was the black sheep. Especially when I was 8 years old and got Epilepsie. Everyone found me weird and no one dared to play with me just because they were afraid. After I got back (I was in a controlled environment to be tested and get the good medication for my illness for 5 months) and my illness was under controle, a time of hell started for me.
They were making fun of me, waited after school to give me a push. Laughed at me because my clothes weren't the newest. Name calling. So ever since then I always was everyones friend, never did anyone harm or didn't even speak my mind on anything. It's since 2 years now, since I got my own place, that I started to think; this needs to stop. People were using me and stepped on me and I LET IT ALL HAPPEN!!
My husband and I are 6 years together now and he is really the on in my life who said; Do what you want to do, be happy! Don't do stuff just to please everyone while you feel bad about it! And that put me to everything I am doing atm! I wanted to be different because I felt different so I coloured my hair. I wanted a septum so I took one. And it's kinda funny because where I live the people just stop and stare and now I can honestly say that I don't care anymore. I don't care what they will say behind my back. Everyone just needs to do what makes them happy, despite of people who think that they are better or more. You need to live a life that you are proud of and do random things that make you feel good about yourself! So that's also one of the reasons I wanted to become a Suicide girl. This is me saying to society I don't care with a big middlefinger.
So now i will give you a situation where I stood up for myself:
In the past I had friends who were always giving their oppinions about other people I was befriended with and I always gave in. Till I met my husband and they also had something to tell about him too. I was done with that. I told them I was done with the way they said stuff, the way they treated me from time to time (Sometimes I was only good because they didn't have anyone else to go out with and they always asked me last) and I was done with taking all of the bullshit and being pulled into their world. A couple of months I got nothing from them. And now 3/4 years later the friendship totally changed. From speaking daily and being bf's to ; hi, how are you, kinda thing. But it's okay with me. I finally stood up for myself and I kinda liked the way it felt to just speak your mind.
Here I'll share some older pics from me when I was around 20/21 with my natural color.
Sorry for the bookstory :')
@missy @rambo
