notyetded

fuck its been a wild ride since my last post...still not comfortable talking of this here...the walls have eyes and ears...i will be more honest with myself and listen to all the voices before attempting another high risk relationship...fuck im needin someone but need to be real...not getting any younger..lol....but not yet dead...o to be the age of the ladies here...tho by reading the blogs ,life deals us all a trippy hand if we let it...fuckin tired of dial-up...it runs out tomorrow...will have to see whats out there to get me my porn in record time...lol...i have direct tv satellite...but not sure about the cost for internet..or if it is worth a fuck...45,000 a year has its limits...chump fuckin change in cali...maybe i could strip?...wtf?...shit i will save you all ...i am stillhaving probs getting a pic on the profile...too big...but some day i'll get it right...love to all who needs it...the state fair is in town...i think i saw some sg girls or likely candidates....man im gonna get a hooker...my arm is tired...hehe..(z)