ugh.
i wish i felt better about myself right now.
I have someone willing to take pictures of me that isn't scary, a place to do it... but i'm still dancing around it.
Would i acutally feel better if i were smaller? i dont think so- i feel the same naked now as i did when i was 18. sometimes i rock it, sometimes i only see the flaws.
i think.... i think i need to do it. just so i'll know.
and decide to not beat myself up about it.
sigh.
i know this is a lame blog- i'm just kinda posting a personal pep talk... but i was reading around on the boards.. and well... i think its time to just suck it up and take a risk.
yep.
i wish i felt better about myself right now.
I have someone willing to take pictures of me that isn't scary, a place to do it... but i'm still dancing around it.
Would i acutally feel better if i were smaller? i dont think so- i feel the same naked now as i did when i was 18. sometimes i rock it, sometimes i only see the flaws.
i think.... i think i need to do it. just so i'll know.
and decide to not beat myself up about it.
sigh.
i know this is a lame blog- i'm just kinda posting a personal pep talk... but i was reading around on the boards.. and well... i think its time to just suck it up and take a risk.
yep.
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I would like to see that.
but then again I am a complete and total stranger.
Also I can understand the going back and forth on the whole appearance gig.
somedays I wake up and shout who is that handsome man in the mirror.
other times I feel like I woke up inside dudley moore's body like in Like Father Like Son
boy strangers sure are fucking weird.