nothing666

Wow...how fed up can I be with the lack of care from people I know and have loved or love or just care about? Very fed up actually. I have been sick for days and I have not heard from anyone that I talk to on a regular basis. I have not heard a word from any of them. It's seems to be wearing me down having people walk all over me. Because I give all of the time to my friends and family, sometimes all I want is just a little something back. A hello, a phone call ...I am not asking much. Anyway...I am tired of people at the moment but I am so not. I really want to meet somebody that I can relate to and make out with and just all of that dating type stuff....it's weird but I have hit such a dry spell in my life. My last real girlfriend was 4 years ago. But then I have "dated" in between, but then that doesn't count. I mean kind of, but not so much. Being used for sex and dinners can't really be seen as having a girlfriend unless you actually care that you are being there. I guess? I heard when I was young that all of this would make sense when I was older...I am older now, and it still doesn't make a bit of fucking sense to me.