Last night was the annual SuicideGirls gala in Toronto, so of course that means it's time for my annual post-gala report.
My third annual, in fact.
As I've mentioned to a few people, a week ago I was having doubts about attending. Between my low energy levels and a low mood, I was debating it. But I talked myself into it. I know my depression...
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My third annual, in fact.
As I've mentioned to a few people, a week ago I was having doubts about attending. Between my low energy levels and a low mood, I was debating it. But I talked myself into it. I know my depression...
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I'm back from having medical tests in Toronto.
Based on my blood and urine tests, I'm in perfect health.
All my nutrients are at ideal levels. My blood sugar, cell counts, all that stuff is ideal too.
Even my liver function is great, which surprised them due to all the meds I take.
They sent me for a sleep study, feeling that it may be...
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Based on my blood and urine tests, I'm in perfect health.
All my nutrients are at ideal levels. My blood sugar, cell counts, all that stuff is ideal too.
Even my liver function is great, which surprised them due to all the meds I take.
They sent me for a sleep study, feeling that it may be...
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mneylu:
It's all good- there wasn't too much conversation on our end of the table anyway - I think we were all a little too hungry and overheated to excitedly learn all we could about each other..
but now you know I am on the site anyway,
but now you know I am on the site anyway,
gigantic:
i know i know i know. i just massively miss everyone.! and it would have been nice to be able to go.
So... I'm leaving Sunday morning for Toronto.
My appointment at the clinic is Monday morning, and will span 3 to 5 days.
Yes, that's really how long it will take.
But I'm really hoping that they will finally figure out why I'm so tired all the time.
Kind of anxious about it. I mean, what if they can't figure it out?
Okay - I'll try...
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My appointment at the clinic is Monday morning, and will span 3 to 5 days.
Yes, that's really how long it will take.
But I'm really hoping that they will finally figure out why I'm so tired all the time.
Kind of anxious about it. I mean, what if they can't figure it out?
Okay - I'll try...
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lielock:
thank you hun ♥
how is everything going so far?
and sorry I haven't been super commenting
how is everything going so far?
and sorry I haven't been super commenting
junnie:
Thank You!
I'm alive!
Still tired, but still have a pulse.
If you don't know what I'm talking about, read my previous two entries to catch up (don't worry, they're not epic length).
I'm tired of talking about it, so I won't bore you too much with it.
I will offer a brief update.
Apparently my heart is fine. I say apparently because my doctor didn't say...
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Still tired, but still have a pulse.
If you don't know what I'm talking about, read my previous two entries to catch up (don't worry, they're not epic length).
I'm tired of talking about it, so I won't bore you too much with it.
I will offer a brief update.
Apparently my heart is fine. I say apparently because my doctor didn't say...
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dusti:
Wow! You really are up-to-date on my blogs. 
I will answer your questions soon... likely in a PM. Thanks, you're awesome.
I will answer your questions soon... likely in a PM. Thanks, you're awesome.
dusti:
Thanks for the testimonial. You're a sweetheart.
Wow!
Long time, no see eh?
I haven't written an entry in over a month, and I haven't read people's blogs since Christmas.
I spend most of my time laying on my couch, drifting in and out of sleep.
If you haven't read my last entry, go back and read it (it's brief) so you'll know what I'm talking about.
Here's the update on me...
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Long time, no see eh?
I haven't written an entry in over a month, and I haven't read people's blogs since Christmas.
I spend most of my time laying on my couch, drifting in and out of sleep.
If you haven't read my last entry, go back and read it (it's brief) so you'll know what I'm talking about.
Here's the update on me...
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lycoris:
Thank you! 
I hope you get things sorted out soon. How frustrating that it takes so long to see your doctor! I guess you can't just get a new one, eh? Damn small towns. If we ever move out into the country (as we'd really like to, providing we could find me a job or something so we could actually afford to eat and all that), it's good to know. The things we city-slickers take for granted.
The container that I'm keeping the business cards I'm collecting for you is pretty much full. Is there an address I can send them to, seeing as how we probably won't be seeing each other in person any time soon? (Like a PO box or something? I'm not asking for your home address, no worries!)
I hope you get things sorted out soon. How frustrating that it takes so long to see your doctor! I guess you can't just get a new one, eh? Damn small towns. If we ever move out into the country (as we'd really like to, providing we could find me a job or something so we could actually afford to eat and all that), it's good to know. The things we city-slickers take for granted.
The container that I'm keeping the business cards I'm collecting for you is pretty much full. Is there an address I can send them to, seeing as how we probably won't be seeing each other in person any time soon? (Like a PO box or something? I'm not asking for your home address, no worries!)
starchild228:
Thanks for the birthday wishes! I'm so sorry you are battling such crushing fatigue. I can only imagine how frustrating it must be to know something is wrong and not being able to pin down what it is. Take care of yourself for me. I'll be praying for you. I miss talking to you. HUGS!!
I'm so tired.
Exhausted.
Fatigued.
Lethargic.
Most of the time I feel like I'm only barely awake.
Days go by, and I have nothing to show for it.
I'm so physically and mentally exhausted, it's a wonder that I'm awake at all.
As you may have noticed, once again I haven't been keeping up-to-date with people.
I blame the exhaustion.
A lot of the time...
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Exhausted.
Fatigued.
Lethargic.
Most of the time I feel like I'm only barely awake.
Days go by, and I have nothing to show for it.
I'm so physically and mentally exhausted, it's a wonder that I'm awake at all.
As you may have noticed, once again I haven't been keeping up-to-date with people.
I blame the exhaustion.
A lot of the time...
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starchild228:
I'm so sorry you are feeling so worn down. I have some idea of how you feel, and dealing with crushing fatigue is truly awful. I hope the docs can figure out what is wrong. Take care of yourself, hon. Hugs!!
nina_kova:
thanks sweetie...i miss people like you even if i'm not always in "constant" touch...I hope you are okay...
It's Christmas time!
I know some of you really hate Christmas.
You don't like the religious aspect.
You don't like the commercial aspect.
I LOVE Christmas!
I'm barely Christian.
(Basically, I feel like I've had no choice but to give up on Christianity due to all the right-wing hate that has become synonomous with the faith).
I've never really celebrated Christmas as a religious holiday....
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I know some of you really hate Christmas.
You don't like the religious aspect.
You don't like the commercial aspect.
I LOVE Christmas!
I'm barely Christian.
(Basically, I feel like I've had no choice but to give up on Christianity due to all the right-wing hate that has become synonomous with the faith).
I've never really celebrated Christmas as a religious holiday....
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mentalrage:
should we start calling Hannukah "Fancy Candle Time"
That's comedy genius right there my friend.
I know what you mean about the whole gift thing, I always spend probably too much on people, I'm not saying that to make me seem better because I do that, it's just a fact. You might find it interesting to know that one of my friends is a devout christian and we get on like best mates despite my being an atheist, I'm always winding her up about it. She told me she doesn't go out on Sunday 'cause it's the day of rest so I said "how d'you get to church do you have an elaborate tunnel system under your house or something?" . Hope you had a nice Christmas and a good new year man.
starchild228:
I was on SG for once >gasp!< and just wanted to say hi! Hope all is well in your neck of the woods. Hugs!!
Just a quick update.
I weighed myself last week.
224 pounds.
I was at 350 when I had my weight loss surgery just about four years ago.
I rarely weigh myself.
In fact, I haven't weighed myself in about a year. I worry that if I weigh myself more regularly, I'll get hooked on doing it, and start weighing myself daily, or even worse, weighing...
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I weighed myself last week.
224 pounds.
I was at 350 when I had my weight loss surgery just about four years ago.
I rarely weigh myself.
In fact, I haven't weighed myself in about a year. I worry that if I weigh myself more regularly, I'll get hooked on doing it, and start weighing myself daily, or even worse, weighing...
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lalayla:
Sorry it took me so long to respond to your comment, but I wanted to make sure you don't feel bad for not writing to me when I was really depressed...I was ignoring everyone at the time anyway!
I'm doing better, well I'm feeling better, despite the fact that my situation is getting more and more confusing all the time.
You look nice in the new profile pic - who's the lady?
I'm doing better, well I'm feeling better, despite the fact that my situation is getting more and more confusing all the time.
You look nice in the new profile pic - who's the lady?
taoandcoffee:
Thanks for the birthday wishes - and I'm not afraid of a little manly hug between friends
Let's try this again....
Yeah, I continued my disappearing act, even after apologizing for it and promising to catch up with everyone.
I know some of you have said that I don't need to apologize, but I still feel like it.
I've had a nasty habit, my whole life, of going through periods where I disappear for so long that I end up losing friends....
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Yeah, I continued my disappearing act, even after apologizing for it and promising to catch up with everyone.
I know some of you have said that I don't need to apologize, but I still feel like it.
I've had a nasty habit, my whole life, of going through periods where I disappear for so long that I end up losing friends....
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twinkie:
No worries. Take care of what you need to take care of!
miss_cellophane:
Its a full time position - but on a 3 month contract right now.
Will definitely take lots of pics
lol
Will definitely take lots of pics
lol
Hello!
Remember me?
Yes, I'm alive. And reasonably well.
Sorry I haven't been around. I haven't posted an entry in ages, and I've been neglecting my friends here.
I wish I had an excuse for it. But I've been fine.
I mean, mood-wise, I've been doing alright, so I can't really blame my depression.
I guess I just haven't been feeling as socialble as usual....
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Remember me?
Yes, I'm alive. And reasonably well.
Sorry I haven't been around. I haven't posted an entry in ages, and I've been neglecting my friends here.
I wish I had an excuse for it. But I've been fine.
I mean, mood-wise, I've been doing alright, so I can't really blame my depression.
I guess I just haven't been feeling as socialble as usual....
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starchild228:
Hey, glad to hear you're doing well mood-wise. I kinda miss you being around- although I'm really crappy at the whole replying thing, too. I do value your friendship and I'm going to try to do better. Take care of yourself. Hope to hear from you soon. Hugs!
adair:
I miss you
:/