northern

I'm so tired.

Exhausted.

Fatigued.

Lethargic.



Most of the time I feel like I'm only barely awake.

Days go by, and I have nothing to show for it.




I'm so physically and mentally exhausted, it's a wonder that I'm awake at all.

As you may have noticed, once again I haven't been keeping up-to-date with people.

I blame the exhaustion.

A lot of the time it's tiring even to just sit upright in front of the computer.

I won't apologize, I know you're sick of hearing me say I'm sorry.

But I feel bad for neglecting some very special people here.




I see my counsellor on Monday, and thank God, I finally see my psychiatrist on Thursday.

Thanks to a last-minute opening, I can see him this month, otherwise I was going to have to wait till the end of February.

So I'm very happy about that. I'm pretty sure part of the problem is that my doses of anti-depressants are just too high now that I've lost so much weight the past few years.

I pray that's the reason.

I really am at my wit's end with this lethargy.

I'm tired of being tired.

I want my family doctor to test me for anemia, since I seem to have all the symptoms of a couple types of anemia.

But my doctor isn't making new appointments till the end of February.

He's 69, and I worry that maybe he's winding down his practice.

If that's the case, I'm seriously screwed, because then I won't have a family doctor. There's a serious doctor shortage here, and so none of the other doctors are taking new patients.

Anyways, that's another rant. Hopefully my doctor is just taking some time off and I'll be able to see him at some point to have some blood work done.




Well, if you can believe it, I'm done typing.

Yes, writing this has actually made me very tired.