normajeane

ok, so apparently i have this until my month is over, which is like in 2 days. i'm having such mixed feelings about everything in my life. first of all, i'm still trying to deal with my ex -- the one i was with for 3 years. then there's my last ex, who won't even talk to me anymore. i'm single now, and plan on staying that way. i do like that new guy, but there's no point in persuing it... i'd just end up getting hurt like i always do. i can't seem to get away from my ex, seth, the one i was with for 3 years. i haven't seen him since we broke up in july, but i talk to him like everyday. and he just confuses me more and more. he always makes me feel like shit, and brings me down. and then jason, well, he won't even talk to me, and i don't know what i did. i was so hurt by him, and i had to deal with seeing him happy & laughing all the time at work. i know he's probably moved on. he probably already has a girlfriend. like 3 days after i broke up with him, i found out he wanted to ask out another girl at work. one i had thought he liked while i was with him. one more like him. and i heard this from 2 of his closest friends. so that sucks. and now that i'm not with him, and don't hang out w/people from work, i pretty much have no life, and no friends -- except for my roommate and this new guy. he'll probably just be a friend, b/c i don't think i can bear another loss like i've had...