It's been awhile since I've had a good blog so I guess it's time I catch up.
Ok so right now I'm eating some Doritos Blazin' Buffalo and Ranch Chips...they are spicy but so damn good. I'm also watching Sorority Row...so far not living up to my expectations. Man my mouth is on fire.
I've received a few messages about the Guard. I'm still looking into it. I still have yet to talk to a recruiter but I have a few things I need to find out first that are going to be the deciding factor of whether or not I join. I still haven't talked to my parents, that's what makes me most nervous. I've talked to Danny about it tons. I pretty much know what to expect and I know it's going to be one of the harder things I've ever done. I know they won't approve but it's my decision. I guess within a few weeks I'll know for sure if it will be part of my career move.
Also, I'm really second guessing my schooling. I was going to be an English teacher, but right now in my area 17 teachers were let go, because in Illinois there were budget cuts and education being one of them. It will make it that much harder for me to be able to get a job. I know realistically I would have to relocate but I would still need to teach within Illinois because of my teaching license. I'm not sure what I would go for exactly. I had thought about Nursing but right now I don't have enough prerequisites to be in the nursing program at school. Growing up sort of sucks.
I've been withdrawing from my friends the past few days. I'm stressed out with everything going on. I feel like I can't talk to them about most of the things going on because they don't understand that my decisions affect my son as well. Like the other night I told my closest friend that I was going on a walk to think about things, she asked if she could join so I walked to her house about the time I got there I received a text saying she was meeting her ex boyfriend's girlfriend and would meet up with me in about 15 minutes. So okay I told her I would be back, so I started walking...went back she wasn't there yet, so I kept walking after an hour of walking and 3 1/2 miles later I texted her to tell her I was going home. No response. An hour after I got home I received a phone call and texts and facebook messages because I wouldn't anwser...they all said the same thing..."Ash, I'm sorry I know I ditched you and you are upset with me but please forgive me I really need you right now, I've devastated about things I found out about Linds (her ex's name was Lindsey)" That made me more mad...first off she ditched me to meet her ex's girlfriend, and she got upset...like that was some sort of surprise...and then the reason why I wanted to walk was because I was stressed and upset....and then she asks me to pretty much get over it because she is upset. I don't know...sorry about my rant.
Spring Break is nearing the end, which I'm pretty excited about. I partied twice and the second time I texted Dan to see if he wanted to fuck...classy on my part. Luckily, it didn't happen. I don't think that would have been a good thing. I also thought I lost my camera...luckily that didn't happen as well. And plus I don't work on school breaks and I sure could use the money. And something to do...I want classes to start up again.
I think that concludes my epicness of a blog.
