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I can't drink beer. And I don't like the kind of drunk you get from wine. Instead of feeling happy and giggly, it makes me feel heavy and unpleasant.

The touch thing, it's more a matter of just being able to cuddle with friends when you're hanging out, then the making out with random people part. It's mostly an issue of being comfortable enough with myself that I can be comfortable with other people.

Hey Jude has been a love song for me. Someone asked me once if it meant anything to me, if it had connotations, and I said I didn't think so, so he asked if he could have it. It used to bring me out of myself. Now it just makes me sad.

I love child pose! It's perfect. I'm actually really good at balancing poses, for some reason, since I'm actually horribly clumsy. She even complimented me on that today.

I was wondering what had happened to you...

Hi! How are you? Thanks for the message, you are sweet

I think that dreams are just dreams. I don't like the idea of overanalyzing them and making them mean some weird psychological bullshit thing.

Evelyn though, it isn't that she's self-centered. She actually cares a lot about what's going on in our lives, and part of the problem really is that she asks so many questions. Having to talk about myself is overwhelming for me, and when you add to it the having to translate everything we say back and forth, it's just way too much. And then she goes off on these long advice rambles about how I should be young while I'm still young, and go out and have fun more.

In general, I really love most of my family. I just don't like it when they come to visit, and you're obligated to spend all your time with them, so you can't get the time to yourself that you need without being offensive.

The Buddhists taught me that emotions just happen, and that you don't need to judge them or change them, you just experience them while they're there, and know that they will move on eventually.

I saw "Last Days" by Gus Van Sant. I don't know if it was worthwhile. I guess it depends on what your tastes are.

I did get that book. At first I was confused, like "was this on my wishlist?" and then I realized that it was just a gift. So thank you.

How was the beer thing? I am always curious, but it wouldn't do me much good to go, since I can't drink beer.

What kind of job are you getting? If I may ask.

(I am trying really hard not to look at the emails I've already gotten, yours included. They're so tempting.)

Common People, Disco 2000, Do You Remember the First Time. By Pulp. And, Mysterious Ways, Beautiful Day, Numb. By U2. I dance around my room to them.

I have always wanted the middle. I have always said that all I've ever wanted is to be okay. It's still sort of true, but I've also always projected "okay" really well, and I'm getting very sick of that. I think for me to find the middle, I need to explore the other extreme for a while.

Any time I hear someone speaking anything but English, my mind jumps immediately into French, even if I know a little bit of something else, it just turns on French mode, and that's all I can think of. I don't even know enough French anymore to have a conversation.

I don't worry about him in terms of me, and what I've done, or how I could help. I just worry about him, as him, wonder how he is managing to get by, wondering if he is okay, or if he will be. I guess it's more wondering than worrying, really.

Im so glad you like it, thats really cool!

Thanks for the cd and the book! I've been wanting that disc for SO LONG. Thank you SO MUCH. The book looks really interesting, too. It's not at the end of my reading list, though; I shoved it into the middle so there are only 3 books in front of it. I have to finish The Winter King (first in a trilogy about King Arthur), then I will read a mystery by Reginald Hill, and then comes Gates of Fire, which is about the battle of Thermopyle. After those I can read The Sparrow, and then get to the next book in the trilogy.

No, thank you.
I always think I'm so bad at articulating things, and most of the time I really am, but somehow I manage to write these entries that everyone seems to really connect to. It's very strange.

Oh thank you, Im so glad you like it! Hope you get the job you're going for.