nonblonde

i know that i want a child someday. only one and not anytime soon, just someday. my boyfriend isn't sure if he ever wants children.

i also may be infertile so adoption might be my only option to become a parent. i've always been open to the idea of adoption, but my boyfriend has said on several occasions that he would not adopt and raise someone else's child.

so here i am, worried about my future with him. again.

do i end the relationship now or wait until i'm actually in a place in my life where i am ready to become a mother?

what happens if i am ready and he stills hasn't changed? is that a risk i want to take?

do i want to put more and more time into this relationship that seems doomed to end?