Today I kissed a leper on the mouth and caught enlightenment. Today I was born into villainy, and realized the evil that paragons of virtue present. Today I dropped the baggage that I was carrying around, the baggage that I thought was going to make me immortal. The quest for immortality, which just about everyone pursues whether they know it or not, is a memory in a vault full of other moth-eaten memories now. Today I took pleasure in every pain I felt. Every time my gag reflex kicked in with every bite of cafeteria food that I took, I reveled in my limited existence. Every time my muscles twinged with pain from a body that is never going to heal, I delighted in my downfall, devoured the sensation of the fall of the god that I had always tried to fool myself into believing I should be. Have I lost my mind? Maybe. If so, then all the better. Just one more discarded trapping of a costume that I would never fit into. Today I saw everything that was beautiful in the world through the eyes of a man who is in the last fleeting moments of an even bigger moment known as life. I'm not dead. I probably won't be soon. But I will die someday, just like my parents, just like all the animals, just like the earth, just like the sun. Everything is equal with death. And so the anomaly that is life is infinitely intensified, a beautiful contrast all made possible by everyone's greatest fear. Perfection is imperfect. Long live the catalyst of villainy.
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perfection is overrated anyway