This is my third year in college, and I'm probably only half-way through when you consider the double-major and the education minor. I spent the last couple of hours fantasizing about being in a car crash before I became compelled to start reading Fight Club again, and this is when I discovered the sum of what I have learned after over $60k and three years of my life. I know how to underline shit in a book. I can't help but wonder, how did I get this way? Have I always been this way, feeling like this during nearly every waking hour of my life? There has to be a remedy. There has to be a solution. There has to be some way to stop feeling like shit. My biggest paranoia right now is that somehow the world that I inhabit has somehow been intentionally designed to nurture this sort of programming in people.
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