Today my search for inner peace and enlightenment ceased, at least for a little while. I just let go. For the longest time I've been struggling against who I am, while trying to be something better. Finally I realized how silly it is to try and be different from what you are. No matter how much a person might change, in the present moment they are who they are. They cannot be different. It was as if for a moment I caught a glimpse of my true self and saw that I have been all along the person I was trying so hard to be. I just couldn't see it, because my mind was clouding my perception with ideas of getting somewhere better, or being saved by the love of someone I haven't met yet. I also find it rather amusing that I could have realized all of this by watching The Empire Strikes Back and listening to Yoda
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