Since I have given up thinking, I smile all the time. It must sound horrible, because you are undoubtedly an intellectual of some sort if you are reading my journal. I don't ever remember being this happy.
Nothing is really working out, and yet everything is. That is to say, my life situation hasn't really improved or changed in any really positive way. It is difficult to explain. Once I stopped thinking about everything, about all the stuff that I thought I was going to have to do one day, about all the things that I had to become, about all the stuff I couldn't find answers to no matter how hard I tried, I felt free. I felt free of any and all obligation or responsibility to this world to have to try and be anything. Being is something that is simply unfolding naturally from within now.
For the first time I am not worried about love. I am not worried about getting a job, I am not worried about finishing school or failing French. I have no fear, and being unclouded by fear, joy blossoms from within.
Nothing is really working out, and yet everything is. That is to say, my life situation hasn't really improved or changed in any really positive way. It is difficult to explain. Once I stopped thinking about everything, about all the stuff that I thought I was going to have to do one day, about all the things that I had to become, about all the stuff I couldn't find answers to no matter how hard I tried, I felt free. I felt free of any and all obligation or responsibility to this world to have to try and be anything. Being is something that is simply unfolding naturally from within now.
For the first time I am not worried about love. I am not worried about getting a job, I am not worried about finishing school or failing French. I have no fear, and being unclouded by fear, joy blossoms from within.
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So, last I was on you were talking of leaving school (or am I mistaken)??? You did it Im assuming?
I cant wait for my worldview to alter- fuckin veil of academia! Anyway...
So about roaming- actually- I might just take you up on that! As it were, I was planing on making GA a destination, thats not so very far off from NC! (comparatively).
"Ultimately we know deeply that the other side of every fear is freedom." - Marilyn Ferguson