nolan_void

Things went about as well as I had expected them to with the girl last night. I'm fairly certain that the packages of gifts that I made her was the best Valentine's Day surprise she's ever had, so chalk one up for me. I told her I was still in love with her, which she already knew, and I knew she already knew. I don't know where I stand with her, but I know where she stands with me; at least I'll always have power over that. I told her that I wrote her a letter, but I didn't include it with the other gifts because it was really deep and thoughtful, and I wanted Valentine's Day to be really lighthearted. We watched The Corpse Bride and it was really fun. She said afterwards that I could give her the letter if I still wanted to. I wonder how to interpret that? Maybe it is best not to read too far into it.

I think I know what I am going to end up doing for the rest of my life. I am going to work an 8 to 5 job, and come home and practice writing and drawing for at least three hours a day until I have something that I feel is good enough to pitch to an independent comic company like Dark Horse or Top Cow. Then I'm just going to do everything I can to break into the comic book industry. I'm probably going to quit school after this semester, depending on how it turns out. This is what I want to be doing, so why wait?

If things end up working out with the girl, I'll find a way to relocate to Florida (which is where I've wanted to live for a long time, and where she happens to be from). I don't believe in long distance relationships in the same way I don't believe in a literal Santa Claus.

If nothing else, I'm trying to refrain from planning too much. I feel truly empowered in my life, possibly for the rest of it, but you know what they say about the best laid plans. If you don't know what they say, you can probably infer from context that they don't always work out. Empowerment comes in the moment, and the present moment is the only thing we ever have.