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I started thinking about singing mice today at work, and they reminded me of so many things and I started crying. It is sometimes hard to tell when you are about to be ambushed by your tears. I sat in the bathroom for about five minutes just letting it all out. It was mainly because the people that I care about most in the world...
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bella_silencia:
I really enjoyed reading this. Your writing is very moving.
bella_silencia:
Thank you, sweetness. I just realized that I never responded to the lovely birthday message you sent me. That message was truly beautiful and totally made my day- thank you. kiss
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Today is Saturday, the sacred day in my week. Saturday is wholly of the present. There is no class to ruin the first half, as there is on Friday. There is no class tomorrow to plague us with worries about work we haven't yet done, as there is on Sunday. Saturday is mine, is ours.

When I work Saturday mornings, hardly anyone comes in to...
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I've already started planning paper topics for the final year. One involves the character Rorshach from Watchmen and Joseph Campbell. It revolves around my position that Rorshach is the hero of the story, if there is anyone that can be called the hero in Watchmen. Also I find a not so surprising coincidence in that Joseph Campbell often wrote about the hero with a thousand...
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I met someone this weekend and I'm falling in love. It seems crazy, but it's not. When the conditions are right, loving someone is the easiest thing in the world. I wasn't able to sleep very well all night, but when I finally got up, all of the world seemed a little bit brighter.

I woke up at around 4:30 in the AM, and watched...
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I can see the summer's end on the horizon, and quite frankly, I'm fucking tired of the 100 degree weather on a daily basis. I moved into the basement of a professor's house, which happens to be just by my school. The final two semesters are coming. They'll be hellish, but hopefully the idea of getting out for good will keep the fire lit under...
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kundalini:
The buddhist way to see it would be the best way to see it. Don't think about it at all, and it falls in your lap when it should.
Relationships with bartenders never work when you've met them at the bar.
darlinginvalid:
xoxx. good to hear from you! If your last year is anything like mine, you will write the crest between complete slackerdom and complete motivation. I didnt care about anything at that point because I had but soo much time in. And this nonchalant who -gives-a-fuck-now-anyway-attitude made writing my 9,999th essay more palatable.


right now im listening to a whitestripes cover of a dylan song and its hot.


thought i would share. :p
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Wow, this site has changed an ass-load since I've been gone for a few months. Summer away from all things school is going well, and I feel like I have a huge gauntlet ahead of me to run for the next year in order to get out of college, so I'm trying to enjoy my time off while I can.

I've gone to the dark...
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darlinginvalid:
man. I could really go for a good woman right about now too.
oh wait, no. that was a craving for a stiff drink.
my mistake.
darlinginvalid:
i miss you! *sulk*
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Some days, more than others, I feel acutely the weight of the tyrranical beauty possessed by women beyond reach.
kundalini:
On these days, it is difficult to be here.
fukidunno:
I think when we're old we all look the same anyway, like old men! eeek

That's why it's so damn important to fall for a mind, not a cute ass, although if the two are connected, well great. Hopefully one lasts a little longer than the other, but neither is guaranteed forever.
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I was reading Kingdom Come today...again. In case you are unaware, this is a story set in a possible future of the DC universe where the great heroes have all retreated from the world, leaving the new generation of superheroes, hardly worth looking up to, fighting a chaotic, pointless, and endless battle amongst one another. Superman was the first to go because the human race...
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severity:
Yeah, me too. I don't understand all the layers and lengths bullshit. I just know how I want it. Maybe I should draw them a diagram next time.

Maybe I should read Kingdom Come. It only occurred to me the other day how much I could be capable of if I just tried instead of assuming I wasn't good enough.
fukidunno:
Your words mean so much, thank you.
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I wonder how they determine how long is long enough in school. For most cases, it seems to be about 3-4 years. Think about it. Elementary school, middle school, high school, college, and grad school all take that amount of time. I wonder if that is how long they figure it takes to become proficient enough to move on, or if it is just the...
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bella_silencia:
Ugh, college has taken me five years. I've transferred between so many colleges, and so many units were lost. At first I didn't mind, but now I'm feeling so burned out.

I did feel that Silent Hill disclosed a lot of information, but I didn't mind that so much. My question is, what happened with Rose and her daughter that seemed to trap them in an alternate demension? I kept trying to figure out why her husband could sense her when they seemed to occupy a similar space, yet they were having completely different experiences (he's walking down an abandoned hallway, she running from some demon down a dark, decaying hallway). What are your thoughts on it?
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I was having a bit of a hard time earlier tonight. At first I was worried that I was overcome with aggression, maybe rage, but that was not it. It was more like a simmering bitterness deep within my gut. I felt maliciously and egocentrically bitter about so many things, things like that there are other men on the face of this earth who dare...
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drake:
I'm glad that entry ended well!

Also, my comic: not so secret anymore.
kundalini:
I still believe that reality is what we make of it. I believe that we choose what we see. A wise person once said that madness was merely choosing a different perception. Your last statement is indicative of the tao. Embrace that and let the nihilism slip away.
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I have completely given up on Satanism once and for all. For a time I wandered back to it every now and then whenever I wasn't feeling gratified enough by my life, and found a lot of amusement in the more macabre elements found therein, but last night I read something on the subject by a scholar I have a lot of respect for. Jeffrey...
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bella_silencia:
Your comic sounds exciting.

I feel sick went up to at least 3 issues? I only have the first one from that series, and I think that I have the complete JTHM and Squee series. Hmmmm.
darlinginvalid:
oh. Zim! I have all seasons on DVD. he is my hero. Its a shame that vasquez kinda...just stopped...on all accounts.

tell me what other comics are good in your book.
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I have had a recently rekindled interest in the works of H.P. Lovecraft and the mythos he created in his time. This probably has a great deal to do with the incredibly awesome board game I got not too long ago, Arkham Horror, which is based on the Cthulu Mythos. So far I've dug up two annotated collections of stories and an H.P. Lovecraft lexicon...
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kundalini:
I found the unspeakable horrors of H.P. Lovecraft at 19 and have been a willing fellow under the thrall of his prose. I have every piece of fiction he's ever written, but I have none of his collected books of letters. Ironically, by most accounts, his most famous work is his letters to his friends that have been collected into several volumes by the publishing house that Derleth and others founded after his death. It pays to be wary while reading books labeled with the Lovecraft name. Derleth put out a lot of garbage that he wrote with H.P.'s name on the cover.

Before we can have another Renaissance, there needs to be a twenty-first century version of the Black Plague. I'm all for thinning the herd and moving on. Nihilism is a monster? It's a matter of perspective. A little death, destruction and mayhem coupled with a loss of civilized "comforts" would do wonders for perspective...