So i had a great time at Encore's first ever Encorefest last night! Considering this was in my hometown of Scunthorpe! It was an pretty amazing night! 
Even through i had a massive headache for most of the night! Everyone i knew seemed to be out and it was nice to finally catch up with everyone whilst watching some pretty insane local bands and having the odd drink and sing song.
Me and Liam FINALLY got a picture at the end of the night! I was so glad Carl got this photo! We have been together over an year and we didn't have a picture together until last night!
We have both been so busy lately and have spend most of our time together sleeping/ watching telly so it was nice to get out and do something as a couple! Cause i'm a soppy bitch really!
Been feeling pretty shit lately though; and whilst last night was amazing i couldn't help but standing still in the middle of the dance floor and wondering why i ever had felt the comfort and safety of the flat away from dickheads and judgmental bitches.
I keep finding myself apologising for being sick. I know I shouldnt and I know its not my fault but I carry this guilt about how this affects others that I just cant get rid of.
But hey; i guess sometimes i just wonder why everything and everyone is the way it is. I spent so much time worrying about things, i fear that oh i dunno, i just wished i could be invisible around here at times!
"For the chronically ill, details are all. To cope with chronic illness means to routinely scan minute bodily processes. Attention is vigilantly focused, sometimes hour by hour, to the specifics of circumstances and events that could be potential sources of worsening. There is the daily quest for control of the known provoking agents. Enervating decisions must be made about when to initiate or terminate an activity, when to move from baseline medication to second-level drugs, and when to seek professional help. And all this occurs in the context of active lives that are filled with the same pressures, threats, vagaries, and exultations that make of normal living such a blooming, buzzing confusion [James] Is it any wonder that exhaustion is one of the common shared experiences of chronic illness?"
Arthur Kleinman, The Illness Narratives
Right now this is Blu shes an angel in my life, i'd honestly be lost without her; id can tell her anything and she never judges me.
From Glasshouses! OUT ON 17TH SEPT
From Blue Mondays!
She's beautiful inside and out; I'm not sure she realises how special she is but i truly love this doll to death; joining suicide girls was the best thing i have ever done not just cause of the boobies and you guys! but because i have meet the loveliest lass ever!
Anyway; Today i woke up to a disk through the post with two new sets i shot a couple of weeks ago! I also got the receipt for the postage of Blu's parcel, so im pretty excited for her to get some of her presents!
So have spent most the day looking through the many photographs trying to find some decent ones where i wasn't pulling an massive derp face!
Possible Set One Shot by Brian Gamble
Possible Set Two Shot by Brian Gamble
These haven't been edited or anything yet btw, so don't be too mean!
But don't forget my Upcoming set Summer Blossoms coming out on the 5th September!
Tumblr stuff thats making me kinda smile lately;
I thought i was the only one who was like this!
Even through i had a massive headache for most of the night! Everyone i knew seemed to be out and it was nice to finally catch up with everyone whilst watching some pretty insane local bands and having the odd drink and sing song.
Me and Liam FINALLY got a picture at the end of the night! I was so glad Carl got this photo! We have been together over an year and we didn't have a picture together until last night!
We have both been so busy lately and have spend most of our time together sleeping/ watching telly so it was nice to get out and do something as a couple!
Cause i'm a soppy bitch really!
Been feeling pretty shit lately though; and whilst last night was amazing i couldn't help but standing still in the middle of the dance floor and wondering why i ever had felt the comfort and safety of the flat away from dickheads and judgmental bitches.
I keep finding myself apologising for being sick. I know I shouldnt and I know its not my fault but I carry this guilt about how this affects others that I just cant get rid of.
But hey; i guess sometimes i just wonder why everything and everyone is the way it is. I spent so much time worrying about things, i fear that oh i dunno, i just wished i could be invisible around here at times!
"For the chronically ill, details are all. To cope with chronic illness means to routinely scan minute bodily processes. Attention is vigilantly focused, sometimes hour by hour, to the specifics of circumstances and events that could be potential sources of worsening. There is the daily quest for control of the known provoking agents. Enervating decisions must be made about when to initiate or terminate an activity, when to move from baseline medication to second-level drugs, and when to seek professional help. And all this occurs in the context of active lives that are filled with the same pressures, threats, vagaries, and exultations that make of normal living such a blooming, buzzing confusion [James] Is it any wonder that exhaustion is one of the common shared experiences of chronic illness?"
Arthur Kleinman, The Illness Narratives
Right now this is Blu shes an angel in my life, i'd honestly be lost without her; id can tell her anything and she never judges me.
From Glasshouses! OUT ON 17TH SEPT
From Blue Mondays!
She's beautiful inside and out; I'm not sure she realises how special she is but i truly love this doll to death; joining suicide girls was the best thing i have ever done not just cause of the boobies and you guys! but because i have meet the loveliest lass ever!
Anyway; Today i woke up to a disk through the post with two new sets i shot a couple of weeks ago!
I also got the receipt for the postage of Blu's parcel, so im pretty excited for her to get some of her presents!
So have spent most the day looking through the many photographs trying to find some decent ones where i wasn't pulling an massive derp face!
Possible Set One Shot by Brian Gamble
Possible Set Two Shot by Brian Gamble
These haven't been edited or anything yet btw, so don't be too mean!
But don't forget my Upcoming set Summer Blossoms coming out on the 5th September!
Tumblr stuff thats making me kinda smile lately;
I thought i was the only one who was like this!
VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
1. Glad you enjoyed Encore-Fest! I spent the day riding horseys!
2. Where the fuck did you find that quote?!
3. You do realize 'you're what keeps me believing the world's not gone dead', is SA lyrics?
4. Holy crap your shit with Brian. <3