Hey people, how's things? Today was a bad day Guilt is a mother fucker. I'll get through it though. Somehow I always do. I did a lot of thinking today and I think I've figured something out. For a long time I've been completely fascinated by the concept of werewolves and lycanthropy in general. I know this seems like it just came out of left field somewhere, but I assure you, it's relevant. Just bear with me for a moment Now the whole concept of a werewolf is someone that can change their shape and form into that of a wolf, or a man-wolf hybrid. Usually under the full moon, but not always. Also changing their mental state and instincts and pretty much everything about themselves as a whole. Humanity is thrown out the window and a completely new beast takes charge. Now this is the conclusion that I've come to: We are all werewolves. Metaphorically. There are two sides to all of us. The civilized version is, for most of us, the side we predominately choose to show to the world. But then there's that other side. The animalistic part of us that sometimes tears it's way to the surface and makes our lives hell the following day. I'm sure all of you at one point or another in your life have just said fuck it and let yourself loose all control. Unfortunately, my wolf got out last night. And it's been escaping more and more frequently as of late. Which is scary because it's feeling more and more natural everytime this happens. But when I'm back to being me, I usually hate myself for it. And self loathing is not a healthy way to live. I've come to realize that more often than not, drinking is what does it for me. I'm not a violent or angry drunk either, I just loose my morals, pretty muchand it gets me in trouble. I don't drink very often, and when I do, it's not usually much. But once in a while, it's on. So alcohol, I've learned, is my full moon. That's my trigger. Everybody is different. Some people get set off by booze, others drugs, sometimes women, some just like a rush of adreneline. But the two halves both serve their purpose. They keep you balanced and in check usually. But anyways, I guess that's about it. We're all a bunch of fucking werewolves. Or maybe I'm just crazy....Oh, there's a folder with some pics from halloween if y'all want to check em out. Ladies and Gentlemen, I give you....Weapon X
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darklis:
Um, P.S. Your hot.
darklis:
Not even close. I feel sorry for everyone trying so hard, I will probably just post the nudie candid in my journal tomorrow. Oh, and I think you're much hotter than me, I have to look at me every day.