I talked to her last night. She called to see if there was any way we could work this out. No matter how bad I want to, I know that it would be a bad idea. She asked me to come over so we could talk but it would have been way to easy to just turn a blind eye to everything and pretend like it was all back to normal. I felt so horrible telling her that I was not coming back. It really was done. I hate it when she cries, especially if I made her cry. I wanted to rush over there and hold her, tell her she'd be okay. All I could do was sit there on the phone in silence, not knowing what to say. I 'm all she has in her life. I truly am. Her entire family fell apart and abondoned her when she was 16 or 17 and I was there for her. I'm all she has left. We've been through a lot of shit together and we're so close to each other. Perhaps later on we might be able to retain some sort of relationship as friends, but at this moment I'm not so sure. It might hurt for both of us too much.
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coming outta' a four year live in relationship not too long ago, i can definitely say you are both in for a lotta' hurt, reflection, and you definitely need a couple months apart to do some independent soul searching/self discovery/assessment of what you need & want. Whatever you decide after that, it will be the right decision.
In my case, I fell madly in love with a new guy and haven't been happier since. Also, I have formed a pleasant return to friendship with my ex surprisingly, so it really did turn out for the best, but I won't say it was easy, it was the hardest fuckin' shit ever.
good luck to you.
xo