People say this all the time, so I'm sure it sounds like just another hollow statement in a long line of hollow paragraphs, but...
I'm giving up the booze. I'm dead serious. I turn into a stupid, irresponsible and immature jackass when I drink. I'm sick to death of it, so that's it...end of story, goodbye.
I'm not so naive, however, as to think I can make such a bold statement and stick to it forever, just like that. My goal at the moment is to go for a month without it and see what happens. I'm pretty sure I can do that.
Don't get me wrong, I don't think I'm an alcoholic or anything like that. I don't even really drink that much anymore. I used to rip shit up pretty good "back in the day" but I'm too old for that shit anymore. Problem is...when I DO go out drinking, I have no ability (No Control, anyone?) to stop myself from going too far. I don't know when to say when. I have once again gone out and made a colossal ass of myself.
I have made a promise to myself that this is last time I will ever have a need to go around apologizing to people the next day. I'm sure there are a number of people who would read this and say that I'm full of shit, but whatever. I'm so fucking done with this childish crap. Done.
So, that's my update for the week. I know I've been slacking lately. I've had a lot of visitors over the past month and even more shit on my mind. I'm dealing with a lot of personal crap, which isn't any fun, but it is very necessary.
I miss you all terribly much, I assure you. To my Richmond (and NoVa) pals, it would do my heart a lot of good to see you all again some time soon.
Especially the two of you who I freaked out the other night...I can't tell you how sorry I am. I owe you a major apology in person. It's hard for me to tell you exactly how grateful I am for your concern. You know who you are.
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Oh yeah...I saw Interpol in DC last night and they kicked ass.
I'm giving up the booze. I'm dead serious. I turn into a stupid, irresponsible and immature jackass when I drink. I'm sick to death of it, so that's it...end of story, goodbye.
I'm not so naive, however, as to think I can make such a bold statement and stick to it forever, just like that. My goal at the moment is to go for a month without it and see what happens. I'm pretty sure I can do that.
Don't get me wrong, I don't think I'm an alcoholic or anything like that. I don't even really drink that much anymore. I used to rip shit up pretty good "back in the day" but I'm too old for that shit anymore. Problem is...when I DO go out drinking, I have no ability (No Control, anyone?) to stop myself from going too far. I don't know when to say when. I have once again gone out and made a colossal ass of myself.
I have made a promise to myself that this is last time I will ever have a need to go around apologizing to people the next day. I'm sure there are a number of people who would read this and say that I'm full of shit, but whatever. I'm so fucking done with this childish crap. Done.
So, that's my update for the week. I know I've been slacking lately. I've had a lot of visitors over the past month and even more shit on my mind. I'm dealing with a lot of personal crap, which isn't any fun, but it is very necessary.
I miss you all terribly much, I assure you. To my Richmond (and NoVa) pals, it would do my heart a lot of good to see you all again some time soon.
Especially the two of you who I freaked out the other night...I can't tell you how sorry I am. I owe you a major apology in person. It's hard for me to tell you exactly how grateful I am for your concern. You know who you are.
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Oh yeah...I saw Interpol in DC last night and they kicked ass.
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