noahmack

I need to stop fallin for chicks that are too young to know what they want. This last chick I was with, and this was over a year ago now, had just gotten out of a bad relationship. She was on the rebound, but I fell so fuckin hard and fast that I didn't even pay attention to it. I was in love with her (I still do love her. We even still talk sometimes). She SAID she was in love with me. Then, shortly after (as in a couple weeks) she started actin different and told me she still had feelins for her ex. Okay. I didn't deal with that too well at first, but then, bein the pitiful motherfucker that I am, I tried to make THEIR relationship work. I was a shoulder to lean on for both of them, but after only a week or so, she got fed up with his shit again and dumped him. Then it was me for a couple weeks. Then it was some other dude she had been with a while back. Now, she's married and about to have a kid with some dude she had just met. What the fuck is wrong with me? I'm as blind and dumb as a high school kid.

Now, the same thing is happenin again. I fell for this chick. I told her I loved her (and I do). She said she loved me. Then she started talkin about how she didn't wanna get in a serious relationship because of college. I was cool with that. That made sense. I admired that. Now she's talkin about how SHE has feelins for her ex (who she just recently broke up with before we met and whom she had been with for 3 years off and on), and once again, I am actually supporting the idea of her patchin things up with this dude. Am I a total fuckin moron or what? I know what I should do, and that's just stop talkin to her. I should just let her go right now before shit gets any worse for me, but for some reason, my sorry ass can't do that. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. I'm sure nobody'll be reading this, but it kinda helps to vent anyway.