hello anonymous internet world who never reads my page that i never update. (except for you. hi blacklisted. 
guess what? i'm a speedball addict. i have about four &a half months clean. i was so close to using today, &then i didn't.
how cool is that? i prayed &it didn't help. i talked to someone in the program &it didn't help. i talked to my sponsor &it didn't help. i went to a meeting &it didn't help. right? but it must have helped because right now i am neither loaded nor dead. that's all.
guess what? i'm a speedball addict. i have about four &a half months clean. i was so close to using today, &then i didn't.
how cool is that? i prayed &it didn't help. i talked to someone in the program &it didn't help. i talked to my sponsor &it didn't help. i went to a meeting &it didn't help. right? but it must have helped because right now i am neither loaded nor dead. that's all.
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planty:
I've now added you as a friend, thus you have another who will read your page. Pictures at eleven...
dharma_bum:
That's quite the journal entry. I'm glad you were able to stave off the craving and clean. 41/2 months...good on you. Cheers.