nivoldoog

Into the night, I climb so high
Just wanting to wish on that star of mine...

So focus on getting there, my eyes grow blind.
The air grows so thin I lose my mind.

Up and up! I continue to go
But stronger and faster I contine to grow

Speeding sky wards, I forget my task
I reach the end of the universe and then I ask

Where is the light? Where is my star?
Back where I started, And ooh, so far.

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Well first week of work since a long ass while... Wow... Sucked but wasnt too bad. Sore as hell from all the working out I have missed out on for months and months... But its a good kind of pain, one knowing something good with be there when it go's. One that the pain is worth the reward.

Cutting back on some partyin, but its kind of hard... Too many exscuses to go and party, alot of people wanting my time, my energy... but not much of me. What do I want... Hell! Dont even know any more. Maybe its not what I want, but what I need... I WANT alot of things... What do I need tho. What do I NEED to do? What NEEDS arent being filled(Emotionaly, phsicaly, mentaly)?

Physical----- hehe... Naw sex is a want not a need....
Well guess the working out is something I need... Good on good start with that one. Um...
Quit smoking... prolly a good one... want to as well but shall take some time...

Emotional---- Closeness with intimatcy... But thats like almost soul mate shit there... Hell Im having a hard time to find a chick half way compatable with me

Mentaly--- WORK! New challanges... New Experiences(Other then partyin)

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Speaking of chicks... Sucks being middle ground... Not a dick headed hunk type... And not a complete loser (Dont even you!).... So not good enough for hot chicks.... To pround to go for fatties or skanks...

The all the middle chicks get date hot dude... while the hot dude is banging like 3-4 of them... Alot of the lower class... have low seld esteem... Hell I like the lower class ones... (Wow I sound very pig headed) The skinny ones at least... But alot have personality disorders(Alot of the hot chicks too) or they already got them a fat dude... or skinny dork... OR THE HOT GUY gots them too! I guess this is part idenity crises... and ALOT of jealousy... Fuck it... It is what it is...