So this is it, this is 30!
I turned 30 11 days ago now and I cannot shake this feeling. I wasn't looking forward to my birthday, not because it was my birthday, not because it was my 30th, but because it signified what feels like a massive failure in my life. I've not met/found that person who I should be sharing my adulthood with. I know it sounds stupid, but I always imagined and planned that by the time I was 30 I would be in that relationship. Planning a family, or at least knowing it was on the cards. But here I am, single, feeling pretty damn miserable every day and I have no idea how to shake it.
Life feels very lonely right now, even though there are some great bits going on. My new job rocks, I'm enjoying it and finding it challenging. I'm currently living in with my best mate, and again that rocks! But all these good things seem wasted when I don't feel like I have anyone to share them time. So I ask you all, should you take the time to read this, how can I meet someone? What should I do?
I believe in myself, and I'm actually quite happy with myself, but as soon as it comes to trying to meet someone I freeze. I can't seem to talk to them. I bottle it completely. Then I think, I'll try online dating, so I have a few profiles on different sites. I think they are a good balance between humour and things that make me sounds interesting. Yet no matter who I message, they visit my profiles and just don't reply. I appreciate that women must get inundated with messages on those things, but they've spent the time visiting my profile. I just don't understand what it is that clearly repulses people from me?!
And now I'm ranting on here. So for that I apologise but hopefully someone will read it and possible have some ideas?
All I'm looking for is a Sally to my Jack, is it too much to ask?! 