cleaning the outside = cleaning the inside
I think sometimes the universe speaks to me quite directly, and then I am reassured.
but, honestly, right now I am very sad.
I don't want to act appropriately.
I don't want to be nice.
I don't want to be patient.
or respectful.
or kind.
I don't want to be the bigger person.
I just want to be...
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I think sometimes the universe speaks to me quite directly, and then I am reassured.
but, honestly, right now I am very sad.
I don't want to act appropriately.
I don't want to be nice.
I don't want to be patient.
or respectful.
or kind.
I don't want to be the bigger person.
I just want to be...
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Rin said:
other things i love:
♥ waking up early in the morning, not because i have to, but because i've slept enough. i love the cool air and long shadows of summer mornings.
♥ napping on the couch with my cat.
♥ burying my feet in the sand when i'm at the beach.
what do you love? tell me everything!
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morie:
Yeah, I know he considers me his wife, and I kinda wish he didn't. Because in doing so it makes everything right now seem so final, and I want to have the ability to make changes still.
It's his party, so it shouldn't matter to me I suppose. When he and Ty were coming up with ideas for it, it was at Zac and Erin's rehearsal dinner and I just thought that was tacky (as it's someone else's wedding, lets let them be the center of attention).
It's his party, so it shouldn't matter to me I suppose. When he and Ty were coming up with ideas for it, it was at Zac and Erin's rehearsal dinner and I just thought that was tacky (as it's someone else's wedding, lets let them be the center of attention).
morie:
I told you he was excited. :o)
And it's not that I'm NOT excited myself to think about getting married to Nic, maybe it's just more the timing. I'm so tired right now, and there's three more weddings left before October. I just want to be excited in thinking about planning my own, not tired because I'm involved in 5 others.
I also think that because I've started planning two other weddings and those have both failed, that if I start planning this one it will also fall through. Nothing like some psychological issues.
And it's not that I'm NOT excited myself to think about getting married to Nic, maybe it's just more the timing. I'm so tired right now, and there's three more weddings left before October. I just want to be excited in thinking about planning my own, not tired because I'm involved in 5 others.
I also think that because I've started planning two other weddings and those have both failed, that if I start planning this one it will also fall through. Nothing like some psychological issues.
The problem is not so much that I don't have boundaries, but instead that I don't understand the boundaries that seem to come so easily for almost every one else. It's as if I'm autistic or somehow just was never taught, except that I'm not and I was.
And it seems easy, in my mind. If a person tells me something, I feel like I...
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And it seems easy, in my mind. If a person tells me something, I feel like I...
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I've been feeling pretty down. not devastated, but drained.
I'm not looking forward to re-explaining things I don't quite understand to my cardiologist, primary care physician, and ...uh... sleep study tech? within the next week. the idea of having a seizure disorder made sense. it wasn't ideal, but I understood it. not knowing is just a little bit tiring. if I don't have narcolepsy (my...
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I'm not looking forward to re-explaining things I don't quite understand to my cardiologist, primary care physician, and ...uh... sleep study tech? within the next week. the idea of having a seizure disorder made sense. it wasn't ideal, but I understood it. not knowing is just a little bit tiring. if I don't have narcolepsy (my...
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happycherries:
Good luck with your tests next week. I know how annoying it is to have to explain things to like 12 different people. It's like can't they just read your chart?? it's all in there somewhere they're just to lazy to look it up. Are you staying overnight to have the sleep study??? I did that once but I'm so particular about where I sleep I didn't really fall asleep for very long.
I'm glad you're still working on the whole smoking thing!@ I can't imagain that sniffing glue is good for you so I'm glad you quit that too!
As for your female problems. I have already given you the answer to this. CHOCOLATE! Listen to me my child. I am older and wiser.
I'm glad you're still working on the whole smoking thing!@ I can't imagain that sniffing glue is good for you so I'm glad you quit that too!
As for your female problems. I have already given you the answer to this. CHOCOLATE! Listen to me my child. I am older and wiser.
morie:
I'd drives ya 'round, but I don't even live in town! Stupid Grandville.
I have a 24 speed bike, but I so don't know how to use the gears yet and I pretty much hang out in third gear (high resistance) on the left and sixth (decently high) on the right. lower the resistance going up hills, raise it going down.
so I'm nearing the top of this hill, and I've only shifted down twice and it won't...
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so I'm nearing the top of this hill, and I've only shifted down twice and it won't...
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mistressmissy:
I'm the same way. Evan tried to show me how to switch gears and I'm still clumsy at it.
soooooooooooooooooooooooooo............
(which is so overused....)
do I have epilepsy? maybe. maybe not.
do I have narcolepsy? maybe. maybe not.
am I in cardiac distress? maybe I should talk to my cardiologist on that one.
and so I'm going to be appointment happy for a bit.
in other news, it's going to take a bit longer than anticipated before I'm actually able to buy a house....
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(which is so overused....)
do I have epilepsy? maybe. maybe not.
do I have narcolepsy? maybe. maybe not.
am I in cardiac distress? maybe I should talk to my cardiologist on that one.
and so I'm going to be appointment happy for a bit.
in other news, it's going to take a bit longer than anticipated before I'm actually able to buy a house....
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evanx:
Keep saving your pennies! 
giggles:
I think she was kind of sad she loves the pool, she is going to be so happy once we put the new one up
A loose transcription slash excerpt from Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close by Jonathan Safran Foer:
Mr. Black said, "I once went to report on a village in Russia-- a community of artists who were forced to flee the cities. I had heard that paintings hung everywhere. I had heard that you couldn't see the walls through all the paintings. They painted the ceilings, the plates,...
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Mr. Black said, "I once went to report on a village in Russia-- a community of artists who were forced to flee the cities. I had heard that paintings hung everywhere. I had heard that you couldn't see the walls through all the paintings. They painted the ceilings, the plates,...
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mistressmissy:
Make sure you request off October 12 and 13th. Our spa day on the 12th starts at 12!
ninjatoes:
That last line is fucking great.
How's house hunting coming? Are you still in the early process or have you actually begun touring homes? Oh, I'm so excited for you! I'll have to send you something fabulous as a housewarming!
How's house hunting coming? Are you still in the early process or have you actually begun touring homes? Oh, I'm so excited for you! I'll have to send you something fabulous as a housewarming!
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ninjatoes:
You're so rad. 
oskar:
Yup its the way it was in Iraq.... kinda. I got my own bed to sleep in each night. I just didn't have TV, internet, or beer. heh
I feel unspeakably disabled right now.
I used to think I was good at my job. today, I feel like there's no way for me to even know if I was the world's stupidest person.
I'm there because of my dad. there's really no doubt about that. I feel like I'm held pretty accountable, but am I? or does he just keep me in a...
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I used to think I was good at my job. today, I feel like there's no way for me to even know if I was the world's stupidest person.
I'm there because of my dad. there's really no doubt about that. I feel like I'm held pretty accountable, but am I? or does he just keep me in a...
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panthro:
you need to stop getting down on yourself. you are not a liability. if you were, he'd move you.
if you lived closer i would give you a giant hug.
if you lived closer i would give you a giant hug.
what an interesting day... where to start?
my mortgage prequalification meeting went well. I don't know anything yet, but that to be expected. while at the bank and waiting for my taxi, I ran into my coworker who was making our deposit. she offered to take me back to work on one condition: we had to stop at steak and shake.
I got a grilled...
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my mortgage prequalification meeting went well. I don't know anything yet, but that to be expected. while at the bank and waiting for my taxi, I ran into my coworker who was making our deposit. she offered to take me back to work on one condition: we had to stop at steak and shake.
I got a grilled...
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everthere:
Celebrity who?
Anyway, I agree wholeheartedly with GypsyPhoenix: cunt bubble is an awesome term, you should get that copyrighted or something a.s.a.p.
Anyway, I agree wholeheartedly with GypsyPhoenix: cunt bubble is an awesome term, you should get that copyrighted or something a.s.a.p.
happycherries:
what kind of an epiphany do you have in Big Lots??
and, you can word spew anytime. that's what the internet is for!
s'ok --- we just do it --- consequences come later and can be dealt with.
(hug!)
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