Monday Jun 25, 2007

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1. I should take dating advice from my sister. this girl totally cracks me up. this guy she really was into had made plans with her, and around 3am (obviously several hours after the plans), he called and wanted her just to come over to his place. she told him never to call her again. knowing her, she'll stick to it, too. ha ha! she's got ovaries, I tell you.

1.5. her SUV broke down on the way to work, so I got all the gossip.

2 I had two doctor appointments before 10am today. gah. I wanted a smoke sooooo bad. on top of that, they scheduled my sleep study CONSULT for late september. oh, but I'm on a cancelation list. head/desk in the meantime am I just supposed to be okay with randomly disappearing from my life or what?

3. I was good. I didn't smoke. it was really hard. I knit A LOT.

4. I'm going to Mackinac Island! yeaz! Mackinac is my most favorite place in the world ever ever ever. I'm just so excited.

5. my Uncle from Scotland comes into town tomorrow. he's a neat guy. if I get old, I want to be like him. he's mostly very quiet, and he listens and watches. When he does say anything, it's either so crazy you think he's gone entirely mad (but instead realize that he's having a ball) or fucking brilliant. right now I'm too busy enjoying the sound of my own voice to be quiet, I guess. ha ha

6. I'm feeling playful but also very tired right now. like I could try to tickle someone if that person were right here, but if that person tried to escape at all that'd be it. if that person tried to tickle me, I would be screwed.

7. Black Celebration is a kickass song. we're going to listen to it again.

8. I totally need to shoot my set. sharp glare in Morie's direction

9. I tried to buy pot today. I failed impressively. okay, here's my history with purchases, laid straight out:

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when I was in eighth grade at Catholic school, we had a craft fair. I was wandering around, looking at the different booths, and I wandered across this scented stuff booth. the woman who was working the booth was offering hand massages, and while she was massaging my hand, she asked what I was interested in. at the time, I was getting interested in the culinary arts, and so I told her that I liked to bake. poor choice of words, I guess. she gave me a baggie of "wheat germ" and a "business card." she told me to call her so we could settle up later. yeah, right. my mom flushed that so fast. so for about the next two years I didn't touch the stuff, but when I was a sophomore in highschool, I had a boyfriend who was into it and he offered to share. well, it was fun once and a while. I learned the put out payment plan pretty quickly. I even earned myself a pretty purple ceramic pipe and bronze stash. ah, coke head boyfriends who still live with their exes are cool when they aren't psycho. then I decided to go to law school, and it occurred to me that having a criminal record would be teh suck. I stopped using completely. I actually threw away the stuff that might connect me to use, because my roommate was using much harder substances in a pretty reckless manner and I was paranoid enough that I though if she got caught, that I would go down, too. anyway, I've never been opposed to people using around me, and since law school, I've opened up to the idea of partaking again. the occasional stupid time chilled me out, unwound me, and made me feel a little more human. so I'm with friend, friend wants to borrow money. said money is for, of course, smoke. i've never paid money. this is a first. it's a big deal. we argue. I make him write me a check. he writes, "pot," in the memo section. I would be okay cashing it if that wasn't what it was for. there was a girl I used to work with at the abortion clinic who would write, "sexual favors," on her checks to me, and no one ever made a fuss over it. and she never gave me sexual favors, either!



?. what number am I on?

10. anyway, if you actually read that history, you may realize that
a. yes, I really do need to get some dating advice from my sister and
b. I went into a lot of relationships not really caring about slash liking the guys I was dating
c. I am excellent at going off on tangents

11. I've put on a few quittin' pounds (like 6), but I'm still bike ridin' and so I'm sure my ass is getting all hard and everything. my belly is just staying put. ha ha ha. it refuses to budge! it says, "hell no! I won't go!"

12. I'm pressing the flowers I sent myself to go on my heart painting. the card that came with the flowers was blank, and so my coworkers and parents assumed they were from John even though I knew they were from me. I actually think it's very sweet that people assumed that John sent me flowers, especially my parents. John always thought my parents disliked him so much, but when I brought these flowers home, my mom asked excitedly, "oh, John sent you flowers?" and I told her that the card was blank, and so she just decided that of course they must be. it's not that I mean to mislead her, it's just that I think it's nice that she thinks that way. even though the orchids he actually did send me for my birthday when he was my boyfriend were by far more beautiful. going in the painting, it adds to the double secret. I like that.

VIEW 9 of 9 COMMENTS
annisa:
thank you
xo
pedronz:
oh noez????

yeah - a lil part of me aint too sure either!

but hey --- If i remember back to the start of our friendship it was one of the first questions you asked me (if i have a set).... well, maybe now is the time?

still - feels a lil odd!

(p.s --- I'm gonna read this blog fully a lil later and make witty and insightful comments as always!)

kiss
kiss

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