nirbhao

about six months ago I started dating a man who has changed my life pretty considerably. he hasn't really done anything himself, but his influence has been tremendous. here are some of the changes:

I go to sleep at a regular time at night (usually around 11)
I take my medication pretty much every single day, like I'm supposed to
I'm not suicidal
I get to have sex a couple of times a month
I have constant intimacy and support
I'm getting a lot better about being on time to appointments, and I'm on time to work almost every single day
Christmas day will be five months sober
my sister no longer talks to me
I now kind of live with my parents and kind of stay with my boyfriend but still can't afford my own place
I mostly stay with him, which means I hardly ever get to really spend time with my dog, who is my baby
I have a special place in my purse for my comb
my place of employment is the most stable place for me to eat
I keep my calendar of appointments on a web-based calendar so that I can update it from any computer with an internet connection (work)
this calender sends reminders to my cell phone so that I get them no matter where I am
my cell phone is also my alarm clock
I keep items of great importance in my car
the flowers and plants I once spent hours caring for on a weekly basis are lucky to be watered now on a weekly basis (if they're not already dead)
money. I've almost got a handle on it.

on top of all of this I'm actually not even an SG hopeful anymore. apparently I missed some kind of site shift and so now I have to reapply.

(every time I edit this my bullets get more exciting)

I've got another good one:

my alarm has started going off. I haven't gone to sleep yet. oops. my bullets currently look like this: ' but I'm going to fix them.

also, happy christmachanakwanzacha!