nirbhao

whatchutalkinboutbabes???

i'm sorry to hear that things are so shitty for you at the moment hugs *hugs* i just wish there was something i could do to make you feel better. it sucks not being able to just pop round and give you a hug or do something lame to make you smile...*sighs* as i've said to you so many times before...all i can really do is tell you that i'm here for you if you ever need to talk or vent or whatever. i know it's not much, but it's all i have to offer right now and i swear that i'll stand by you no matter what.

the situation with your parents and your boyfriend sounds pretty fucked up =/ i have to say though, i totally respect your boyfriend for getting dry and everything, but i guess even more so for having the balls to make the first move towards patching things up with your parents. i think a letter was the right way to go, especially considerng that your parents appear to be acting with a degree of hostility towards his physical presence. i always find that letters provide a more productive means of expressing feelings and sentiments, and also for taking them in, especially in a situation where the parties involved are unable to face one another for whatever reason. having said that though, it's never a failsafe plan, and it's unfortunate that the situation with your parents and your boyfriend seems to be an example of that.

i know that you must hate being caught up in the middle of this, so it's obviously important for you that the whole thing gets sorted out, but quite honestly, i think it'd be in everybody's best interests if they could at least be civil to one another, even if they can't come to like each other, y'know? as you said, there isn't much you can do about your living situation right now, and your parents needs to understand the restraints that the predicament puts upon you. i mean, at the end of the day, you're still their little girl and all they're trying to do is protect you, but what they need to realise, is that part of protecting you involves ensuring that you're as happy as you can be, and if that means having to accept a boyfriend that they don't particularly like, then that's a sacrifice that they should be willing to make. at the end of the day, you might be in their care for the time being, but you're still an adult and you're old enough to make your own choices and live with the consequences. you're not going to be living with your parents forever, and unless they're willing to give you some leaway with regards to your boyfriend, they're gonna find themselves losing your love and respect to some degree, and that's not good for anyone. but anyways, i'm just telling you things that you already know, so i'm gonna shut up now...*smiles*

i just hope that things start to improve for you hun, because you really don't deserve this. you've had to deal with an awful lot of shit in your life....the kind of shit that nobody should have to go through, especially not someone with such a beautiful soul such as yours, and if you have to deal with that kinds shit with absolutely no choice in the matter, then people should be making every effort to ensure that the rest of your life is as care-free as it possibly can be. i just hope that your parents realise that soon.

just one last thing before i finish up....i want you to know how amazing you are to me hun. i know i've said it before, but i think that it's something that you deserve to be told at every opportunity. you really are one of the most beautiful people i've ever been lucky enough to know in every sense of the world, and i know without a doubt that my world is a better place for having you in it. despite what you say about IQ levels and whatever, you're stil one of the smartest, wisest, most thoughtful people i've ever come across, so don't ever let some stupid numbers take anything away from you. you're wonderful, you're beautiful and you're special...don't ever let anybody tell you any different...*hugs*

and don't be concerning yourself with me hun. i'm alright. i've just had a bit of a rough time lately with siezures and stuff (repeated chronic partial complex, by the way) and they thought it best for my safety if i was to stay under observation for a while, that's all. i'm doing alright now, so you really don't have to worry about me =) do keep in touch though and write me back soon...i've missed hearing from you