niobe

look no further!

cruelest
almost
always to ourselves
it musn't
get any better
off

it's in our hands : it always was
it's in our hands : in our hands
it's all there : in our hands
it's all there : in our hands

well
now
aren't we scaring ourselves
unecessarily?
aren't we trying too hard?

'cause it's in our hands
it's in our hands
it's all here : it's in our hands
look no further look no further

it's in our hands : it always was
it's in our hands

It's In Our Hands-Bjork

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through the warmthest cord of care
your love was sent to me
i'm not sure what to do with it
or where to put it

i'm so close to tear
and so close to - simply calling you up
and simply suggesting

we go to that hidden placeidden place

now, i have been slightly shy
but i can smell a pinch of hope
to almost have allowed once fingers to stroke
the fingers i was given to touch with
but careful careful

there lies my passion hidden - there lies my love
i'll hide it under a blanket - lull it to sleep

i'll keep it in a hidden placehidden place

he's the beautifullest - fragilest - still strong
dark and divine
and the littleness of his movements
hides himself
he invents a charm that makes him invisible
hides in the hair

can i hide there too?
hide in the hair of him
seek solace
s a n c t u a r y

in that hidden place

Hidden Place-Bjork

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I am not really one to post lyrics in my journal, but these two songs have been playing over and over in my head lately. They speaks volumes. Such simple and amazing songs yet they makes me think great things.

Today was a good day.

I didn't do much. I did hell of a lof of posting on the site.

I am really hoping that this week, although very short will go well.

I hope your week goes great as well.

I just want to re-post a few things from my previous journals to those who may not have been around this weekend:

From Friday:

I haven't been happy for a really long time. It's nothing in particular that makes me sad, it's just a bunch of shit that has compounded over time. I let everything get to me, but I don't do much about it. I just put on my smile and go on with my life. It seems like everything I do goes unnoticed. I feel like I am constantly looking over my shoulder for the next big disaster to hit my life. I feel like nothing excites me anymore, nothing makes me happy.

Which leads me to this. I am deleting all of my friends on here. I am sorry, but I have so many friends on this site and I feel like I can't keep up with all of you. I feel bad for that. I feel like a really shitty friend. I don't want to neglect any of you so I want to start over. This may seem super bitchy and not make much sense, but nothing in my life is making much sense at this moment. If you want to be added back on to my friends list feel free to drop me that friends request and I will add you in a heartbeat. That would make me happy knowing that you valued my friendship and wanted it back. Not to say that I don't value yours. But I guess it would look that way. I guess I am more or less doing it to see who my real friends are. I would like to flatter myself and think that all 71 of you would request my friendship back, but perhaps I am not worth your time. But please don't be offened that I have taken you off my list.

From Sunday:

Over the past couple of days I have come to realize that you really can't seek happiness. Happiness is something that you have or you don't. I have come to realize that it is okay to be sad. That you are still the same person no matter what. You haven't changed and everyone will still love you no matter how you feel inside.
love you all from the depths of my heart, I really do.

Thank you to everyone that has shown me love over the last few days. Thank you to all of my friends that took the time to read what I had to write in my last journal and to ask for my friendship back. I wish there were more words to describe how all of you have made me feel these last couple of days.

THANK YOU
Niobe


If you did miss my last two journal entries and are confused about anything, they are both still there.


I have learned so much this weekend. Thank you to all that talked to me on AIM or that have dropped an email. It really means a lot to me and always will.





If you believe in dreams, well it's more important that a dream can come true.