Well yes, but actually no.
Okay let me clear that one up for you.
Over the past weeks I was here physically, but my mind was going some place, where I hope it'll never go again. Due to a lack of (or complete absence rather) sleep I was slowly slipping into psychosis. It took a big hit to my head to kind of jolt me awake and do something about it. I'm not talking about a figurative hit. I legit hit my head hard enough to leave me with temporary amnesia. It's a little scary if I think about it, but I prefer to see it as a good thing. I might just be looking for the silver lining of it all, but so be it.
So, Why am I sharing this? I know it's not the most charming thing, but I feel like it's important to show just how easily someone can lose their grip on reality. I consider myself lucky to just barely avoid a full psychotic episode. Was it the hit to my head? who knows. All I know is that once I was able to sleep, things became 'normal' again. Don't underestimate the power of sleep!
I, Together with my psychiatrist, am working on getting back to where I was. From there we will see what the next possible steps are in order to further improve my mental situation.
I'm sorry that this doesn't sound as positive as I would like it to. All I can say is "It is, what it is".
I do wish you all the best for the holidays, whether you'll be celebrating it or not. I just want to wish you the best.❤💕❤
Love,
Ninfu 💕
