nina_kova

I haven't updated here for awhile....While I want to say I have nice, positive, uplifting things to say - I really don't. I am in a rant type mood....Things with my sister are okay - she has appointments today with genetics, her surgeon and the reconstructive surgeon. She's going to have a double mastectomy - and treatments after. She should be okay which is great to know.

As far as me - blah!!! I have tinnutis - which means I can't hear out of my right ear and what I do hear is a steady ringing sound. I am on "stand-by" with the doctor's office. I feel like I'm flying standby...Meaning I am sitting at home, waiting for someone to cancel so I can see the "specialist" - the joys of managed care. They know what's causing it, I have slipped discs in my jaw and I have swelling in the fluid surrounding the joint, which is causing pressure of the nerves in my ear. I feel so medical! All I really need is cortisone shots (owwie!) and it should be fine. So, it is making me feel cranky, dizzy, and tired. I couldn't even get out of bed this morning and I am doing nothing but sleeping and eating Motrin...I can't eat solid foods either....

So - that is my whining...I am feeling like utter shit, I don't want to do anything, I don't want to answer my phone...I have a shitload of homework and mid-terms next week...Just an icky day...I'm done feeling sorry for myself right now. Actually I'm not...So - How is everyone? Any plans for the weekend? I actually have a date - which should be kind of funny if I'm eating through a straw and walking into walls! (my equilibrium is fucked!) I guess that's all...Just ranting and self-pity...