Its time for an updateFirst thank you, thank you, and thank you for the help on my interviews. I of course bastardized most of the comments, created fictional persons, and got an A- ! (good on me!) It is really good, especially since this professor and I are mortal enemies. But, my last summer class is on Thursday and I have to do a lot of reading for my final. Good thing I had read the text a few years back I am such a geek
What is the deal with men and toilet seats? We have a unisex staff bathroom and my old boss never puts the seat down! Silly thing to be annoyed by, horribly clich complaint too but, grrr!!!! I am back at work after a week off I love having a flexible schedule! My Canadian went home last Tuesday, my son was off at summer camp, and I was a total sloth did nothing but finish watching seasons 6 and 7 of Buffy.Today, I went to the gym before work and am trying to get back on my normal schedule.
I definitely weirded out when he went backI miss himFeels weird not having him here now. I got used to his being around and of course, I have major fears that each time he goes back thats the end of the relationship. Its good though that we both have some space right now because its an LDR, its hard to take things slowlyI dont know, I have a really hard time being close to someone. His being here was the first time since my divorce (about 9 years) that I have shared space with anyone, let alone a man! I am so damned neurotic that I dated a man for seven years that never slept in my bed! (or anything else for that matter I never had him come to my house) So, having someone around makes me afraid that I will lose my independence and I am terrified at the idea of depending on someone. Someone once told me if I ever wanted to know how fucked up I am just get into a relationship! Great way to bring all of my deepest fears right to the surface. Then even harder is explaining those fears to another person, especially one I dont want to terrify or have think I am too emotionally disastrous to be involved with. That whole emotionally vulnerable isnt easy for me. But, he and I are talking about this shite and I cant even begin to say what it feels like to be able to talk to him about these things. I have never been in a relationship were talking matteredSo, all in all, its okayIm still happy with having met him and we are still relationshippy.
What is the deal with men and toilet seats? We have a unisex staff bathroom and my old boss never puts the seat down! Silly thing to be annoyed by, horribly clich complaint too but, grrr!!!! I am back at work after a week off I love having a flexible schedule! My Canadian went home last Tuesday, my son was off at summer camp, and I was a total sloth did nothing but finish watching seasons 6 and 7 of Buffy.Today, I went to the gym before work and am trying to get back on my normal schedule.
I definitely weirded out when he went backI miss himFeels weird not having him here now. I got used to his being around and of course, I have major fears that each time he goes back thats the end of the relationship. Its good though that we both have some space right now because its an LDR, its hard to take things slowlyI dont know, I have a really hard time being close to someone. His being here was the first time since my divorce (about 9 years) that I have shared space with anyone, let alone a man! I am so damned neurotic that I dated a man for seven years that never slept in my bed! (or anything else for that matter I never had him come to my house) So, having someone around makes me afraid that I will lose my independence and I am terrified at the idea of depending on someone. Someone once told me if I ever wanted to know how fucked up I am just get into a relationship! Great way to bring all of my deepest fears right to the surface. Then even harder is explaining those fears to another person, especially one I dont want to terrify or have think I am too emotionally disastrous to be involved with. That whole emotionally vulnerable isnt easy for me. But, he and I are talking about this shite and I cant even begin to say what it feels like to be able to talk to him about these things. I have never been in a relationship were talking matteredSo, all in all, its okayIm still happy with having met him and we are still relationshippy.
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Sorry you were in such an awful relationship for so long. No wonder you're skittish about relationships. I would be too.