nina_kova

I have been asked to co-author a book with my faculty advisor very excited about this as it will be my first independent publication. I have been working with him for awhile now and we just finished an article for a peer-reviewed submission to an academic journal. So, this is all incredibly exciting for me! Now comes the difficult part of things I had been a forensic sciences major (I completely dig science) and my goal was to work internationally on mass grave recovery, body identification and evidence preservation. I switched into the social work program this semester as it will be quicker and easier for me to complete. So, Kevin (my advisor) came in on Wednesday and handed me a conference program. What is the focus of the conference? Forensic identifications. He has me registered to go on a mock recovery and exhumation (with a real cadaver).He didnt even tell me about it! I am so excited but now comes the difficult part I think I am a scientist at heart and not a social worker. So I need to decide what Id like my major to be.To me, being able to dig in the dirt and provide answers to people and families would be brilliant! As far as social work goes, my main interest is in working with refugee populations and crisis intervention in war zones. Both ideals are similar to me and are because of my own family history. We lost my entire family in Poland during WWII and never had any answers. My grand-mum and mum were in a displaced persons camp in Germany until they came to the state in the 50s. So, there is an altruistic reason for my career interest, perhaps theres even something cathartic about it meaning that I would love to give answers to people that I have never had. Anyway, I am going on and on as I am very excited about the possibilities if I stay in forensics, but at the same time I dont know if I should. I know doing the body recovery will be amazing and will bring together many pieces of what I have wanted to do. As I told Kevin, hes an evil bastard because he knew Id jump at the chance for the book and conference. He doesnt want me to change majors.

So, there are my big decisions all very exciting but still overwhelming me at the moment. Then in the middle of all of this my Canadian boy has been in touch. I think the real issue for me is that I am absolutely crazy infatuated with him and it is very scary. I guess I dont know how to have a long-distance relationship and even more I dont even know how to have a relationship. Tomorrow is my paintball date and I am excited but I havent told my Canadian as I am not sure what to do with either one of them. Paint ball boy is someone that I have amazingly good physical chemistry with but I dont know if we get along. I also dont want to jump at dating him especially when I am completely taken with a certain scientist north of the border.....

oops - almost forgot... my ex-husband really, really, really pissed me off last night...so i started to smoke again (there was additional drama that went with that - but too shitty to get into) he is such an absolute fuckwitted gutterslut!!!! if it were possible, i'd divorce him again!!! actually, i should marry him again - he thinks i'm a bitch now - that'd learn him