nimiipuu

Have you ever noticed that sometimes no matter how hard we try we are always pulled back into the negativity. I was awoken last night by an old friend that I have not seen in almost a year. She came around to see if I would help her out in her court case against her former ex. ( my former best friend. ) Now I'm not sure if she only came around because she knew there was bad blood between us or if she genuinely wants my help. Which leaves me torn. Do I help her not knowing her true motive? I guess her motive doesn't really matter all that much to me. It's more that if I do decide to help her out I will be face to face with the person who flipped me life upside down destroying all stability. Or do I graciously decline to help her in her cause because I am unsure of my reaction to being face to face with my former friend. I mean no matter how much I tell myself I am non violent and no matter how much meditation I do or how much sage I burn. I have never been this betrayed. I guess in all actuality I know I will behave myself but I'm more worried about how my mind will do. For now all this pain I am so desperately trying to forget is brought back into the light and will be shoved into the forefront of my thoughts at the trial. *sigh* I just don't know what to do

A little insight would be much appreciated