nils

" In this time where most people will get joy and happiness around a vegetal corpse covered with toxic chemical pieces, I just discovered how lame and cruel life could be. And girls. And pasta. And girl's parents. Mostly when they are from a different culture. And mastering kung fu...

Alcohol and sadness having fled my days, i know that reconquiering an everyday life cannot be done without pain. you have to deal with the treacheries of human nature, yours' and he others'. I decided to go, alone but free."

This is exactly what is written inside my moleskin pocket notebook before i considered how my said-to-be-future-wife left home cause her parents told her not to deal with lao wai (ghost foreigners). And crossed back continents and oceans, back to HK.

so now i don't care, i won't let the reasonable passion as before, and act more on the sensations and alchemy...