nilloh

So things are getting pretty crazy lately, less then two months until my Son is due. Right now the Name stands as Elias James Dickerson, thought it was a pretty kick ass name. Went and got the Crib for the mother's house. She's living with at one of my grandma's rental properties not to far from where I am living. I think soon my dad and I are going to start building in the basement finally. I think i'm going to be occupying that space. Two rooms a study/tv room. Should be fairly decent for when I have my kid. Of course i'm not sure how long i'll be in Ohio, I'm still looking at different options as far as getting my training done as a Cop. I'm looking at the State Academy here in Ohio, and of course the One down in Columbia SC. I really need to start filling out applications though and get the ball moving while I still have time before the Kid arrives. It's not hard but it's a long time consuming process, much like going into the military serivce, probably why I'm having hesitation's I just finished the process similar not so long ago. I'm working between 40-58 hours a week lately, so i've been busy sometimes I run on about 2-3 hours of sleep. It's not bad though I can deal with it, I usually end up taking a nap when i get home.

I've been pretty much a homebody lately, i don't get out much these days, one i'm saving money, and two i just don't really have the desire to either. My social life has dwindled quite a bit. Also going out to a bar and seeing the same people day in and day out, with the same stories...well it gets a bit boring, plus i figure hell with it, it's cheaper to drink at home anyways. I mean if i did go out to the bar I would meet up with people, but generally i was alone. Plus i don't really drink much to get drunk, I need to have a good drunk night sometime soon just gotta find someone to do it with i haven't had one since i had a few close friends come visit me...let's just say they were here for three days and it took me about a week to recover. I don't remember much of what went on either. I do know that we managed to have a 400 bar tab. That might not sound like a lot but keep in mind when i go to this bar and I want to get get wasted my tab will be like 35 dollars. Oh and the night we went on they had dollar well drink specials...so yea

The summer is coming, spring is here and in full force, i've been spending my nights out on the front porch drinking a few beers and listening to music, occasionally calling people. Seems like everyone has something going on at the moment. I had a tipsy conversation with my friend Jon the other night. Ok I know what your thinking, tipsy but you just said you don't get drunk so much and that you need a good drunk night. Ok let me explain I'm sure some of you have knocked back a few with me, and anyone that has, knows i have a very long period between tipsy and drunk....drunk for me is falling over, walking into shit and passing out in weird places....tipsy has stages for me. Generally i'm a very well mannered and articulate during my tipsy stage. Anyways to continue the story, I was talking with Jon shooting the shit. Anyways he was asking me if i had started dating anyone lately, i told him no not really, but the funny story to that is that the pregnant ex-girlfriend wants to help me find someone. Her reasoning behind it is that she wants me happy, but at the same time since we are having a kid she would like to make sure that the person would be a good influence on our son and not some crazy ass ho bag from hell. Well Jon laughed since he was drunk, and then he mentioned someone to me that would be a good choice. Now i don't know if it would work out with the person, but it would be interesting if things did. I've known her for 8 years or so, and once we did date. We continued our friendship for all these years. She's great with kids as well. A very Genuine and laid back person as well, very much like myself. I was so interested in this idea i was actually going to wake up this morning and drive to see her. I figure what the hell, give it a shot right. My only hinderence would be risking the friendship but the more I think about it the more i realize that it wouldn't happen really, might be weird for a month or two but we would be able to get over it.

I didn't go this morning but i think i will be taking a road trip in the near future, once i have another two days off. So i'm excited, i've cared about her for a very long time, really always have, i've always been very protective of her.

Speaking of love and caring, i don't know why people think that they can only care and love one person, i think that is completely silly and untrue. I have a few girls i care and love, but that does not mean we have to be together.(i'm talking about romantic love, there are different kinds of love, you got love towards your friends, love towards family, and romantic love) I do believe that there is that one perfect person out there for you. Sometimes that person is right in front of your eyes you just never noticed it for some reason, until that one moment. Oh and another thing, even if people have that one perfect person, or soulmate as some people say, it doesn't mean your going to end up with that person in the end either, like all things it takes time, and energy and some people don't want to take the time to develop the relationship.

I don't know i can be crazy sometimes.

Well i think it is time to pop open a beer and watch of the goodies i have waiting for me on my DVR.