Im irked... For lacking of a better way to put it.
For so long, sg is all I wanted. Litterally.. since i was 16. It never happend, because i live in bumfuck nowhere... and there is NO photographer talent in my area (at least no where NEAR what sg wants)
Im now 22, have a Model Mayhem page... and have made it a point to be flexible to travel....
Why is it no photographers worth shooting with get back to me? i get that im new, and often times very akward, and i do see how this can be problematic for some photographers... But im trying, and learning. I take direction well, and am open to suggestion and critique, i welcome it in fact!!
I know in the past, ive had problems with my (at the time) bf, thinking his input mattered.... But that has been resolved. He doesnt/isnt allowed at my shoots (Also is no longer my BF). i still like to have someone with me... but in cases where i actually feel comfortable, its not nessecary, and i dont bring anyone!
I dont know if ive mentioned in my blog (I know i have in a few groups) This july, i will be in CA twice! For Anime Expo & San Diego Comic con. I have contacted practically ALL of the CA photographers... and No one has gotten back to me (this was probably about 2 months ago) Is it normal for that long of a wait for a response? or am i just being ignored for some reason?
I do realize these people are human, and have lives outside of sg... I just have this bad feeling that the universe (or SOMETHING) is working against me here, to KEEP me from going pink....
On that note, do want to make comment on my previous blog, about the being kicked out of the sg chicago group.... I do not understand what I did to get kicked out. I was told it was because of "self promotion" but at the time i was kicked out, it was due to me posting about a chi sg photog hopeful, who was in a MM contest for photo of the week or sumthin (i forget to be honest). I dont see how that is considered "SELF promotion", and if that was against he rules, I am sorry. I didnt mean to break any rules. I really dont care that i got kicked out, but banned? Yes, i was not active, and did not go to the events, but that was due to my work schedual. For those of you who dont know, im not FROM chi. Im about 2- 2 1/2 hours away, depending on where n the city im goin, and how traffic is.
I have a hunch (based off what this site has become... ) that people are still talking about this. Personally, i dont care, talk all you want. my issue with it is all your talking is ruining a perfectly good hopefuls chances of going pink. Im assuming you dont care... but it is kinda BS. I wish for the bullshit to just end, though i wont hold my breath on this. Basically, this is me saying im sorry for breaking rules, if thats what happened to cause all this bullshit drama. im NOT sorry for standing up for myself, for what i belive in (in case thats what every1s issue is, in which case fuck this site and all it DOESNT stand for).
which i suppose brings me to my final point for the nite... This site has really started to depress me.. It used to be, all i wanted was to be a sg. had friends ask when theyd see me, "HEY YOU A SG YET?" not so much anymore... This site has changed. It used to be a wonderful site, a wonderful community, for all the "alt cyber goth punk freaks" of the world to gather, enjoy sexy girls, and each other. Now its a popularity contest, and barbie is winning.... blonde girls with a nose piercing is NOT alt.
basically im losing faith. dont get me wrong, since the wonderful Radeo has become the model coordinator, the MR queue is better than ever, and ive noticed its even shorter wait time! (well.. its under 2 months now... lol) i havnt seen NEARLY as many poor quality, bad lighting, flipbook sets.
bah... i dunno.. im just so.. at a loss for what to feel about this site. i still want to be a part of this.. but its not as important as it used to me.
I guess it comes down to... If they want to make me pink, they will. If not, well its not the end of my world. Im not saying im gonna go to some "i didnt make it on sg so im gonna go to a competitor site"... but theres other modeling for me. At any rate, ill for sure be here for 5+ years (i say 5, because i WILL submit at least 1 more set.) i dont want to quit shooting for this site... but im not willing to give away anymore free content.
so here it is. Are you in the Central IL area? I WILL travel to you. Im willing to travel to OH (where the closest STAFF photog is located) but thats just for the best of the best.... get ahold of me.
Oh, and on a completely unrelated note... check out this site. ThinkGeek
*update*
I re sent the message i had previously sent (via sg message) only this time i Emailed the photogs. Already getting responses. so if anyone is having the same prob, EMAIL, dont sg message!
For so long, sg is all I wanted. Litterally.. since i was 16. It never happend, because i live in bumfuck nowhere... and there is NO photographer talent in my area (at least no where NEAR what sg wants)
Im now 22, have a Model Mayhem page... and have made it a point to be flexible to travel....
Why is it no photographers worth shooting with get back to me? i get that im new, and often times very akward, and i do see how this can be problematic for some photographers... But im trying, and learning. I take direction well, and am open to suggestion and critique, i welcome it in fact!!
I know in the past, ive had problems with my (at the time) bf, thinking his input mattered.... But that has been resolved. He doesnt/isnt allowed at my shoots (Also is no longer my BF). i still like to have someone with me... but in cases where i actually feel comfortable, its not nessecary, and i dont bring anyone!
I dont know if ive mentioned in my blog (I know i have in a few groups) This july, i will be in CA twice! For Anime Expo & San Diego Comic con. I have contacted practically ALL of the CA photographers... and No one has gotten back to me (this was probably about 2 months ago) Is it normal for that long of a wait for a response? or am i just being ignored for some reason?
I do realize these people are human, and have lives outside of sg... I just have this bad feeling that the universe (or SOMETHING) is working against me here, to KEEP me from going pink....
On that note, do want to make comment on my previous blog, about the being kicked out of the sg chicago group.... I do not understand what I did to get kicked out. I was told it was because of "self promotion" but at the time i was kicked out, it was due to me posting about a chi sg photog hopeful, who was in a MM contest for photo of the week or sumthin (i forget to be honest). I dont see how that is considered "SELF promotion", and if that was against he rules, I am sorry. I didnt mean to break any rules. I really dont care that i got kicked out, but banned? Yes, i was not active, and did not go to the events, but that was due to my work schedual. For those of you who dont know, im not FROM chi. Im about 2- 2 1/2 hours away, depending on where n the city im goin, and how traffic is.
I have a hunch (based off what this site has become... ) that people are still talking about this. Personally, i dont care, talk all you want. my issue with it is all your talking is ruining a perfectly good hopefuls chances of going pink. Im assuming you dont care... but it is kinda BS. I wish for the bullshit to just end, though i wont hold my breath on this. Basically, this is me saying im sorry for breaking rules, if thats what happened to cause all this bullshit drama. im NOT sorry for standing up for myself, for what i belive in (in case thats what every1s issue is, in which case fuck this site and all it DOESNT stand for).
which i suppose brings me to my final point for the nite... This site has really started to depress me.. It used to be, all i wanted was to be a sg. had friends ask when theyd see me, "HEY YOU A SG YET?" not so much anymore... This site has changed. It used to be a wonderful site, a wonderful community, for all the "alt cyber goth punk freaks" of the world to gather, enjoy sexy girls, and each other. Now its a popularity contest, and barbie is winning.... blonde girls with a nose piercing is NOT alt.
basically im losing faith. dont get me wrong, since the wonderful Radeo has become the model coordinator, the MR queue is better than ever, and ive noticed its even shorter wait time! (well.. its under 2 months now... lol) i havnt seen NEARLY as many poor quality, bad lighting, flipbook sets.
bah... i dunno.. im just so.. at a loss for what to feel about this site. i still want to be a part of this.. but its not as important as it used to me.
I guess it comes down to... If they want to make me pink, they will. If not, well its not the end of my world. Im not saying im gonna go to some "i didnt make it on sg so im gonna go to a competitor site"... but theres other modeling for me. At any rate, ill for sure be here for 5+ years (i say 5, because i WILL submit at least 1 more set.) i dont want to quit shooting for this site... but im not willing to give away anymore free content.
so here it is. Are you in the Central IL area? I WILL travel to you. Im willing to travel to OH (where the closest STAFF photog is located) but thats just for the best of the best.... get ahold of me.
Oh, and on a completely unrelated note... check out this site. ThinkGeek
*update*
I re sent the message i had previously sent (via sg message) only this time i Emailed the photogs. Already getting responses. so if anyone is having the same prob, EMAIL, dont sg message!
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Good luck on finding a photog. She lives out west, but I highly recommend BetteJean. She shot my first set, and we're planning my second one right now. She is AMAZING - total sweetheart and crazy-talented.
I just noticed you have similar hair colors than Viking in her set - thanks for your support!
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