oooh i'm bad right now.
the current Nihly is:
back to having trouble sleeping, and back to mounting levels of anxiety
a lazy friend (doesn't call enough it seems. feelin guilty)
being clingy
bored and lonely
watching too many movies and doing inside-things outside of work
pouts when she doesn't get her way
fights over stupid little things
looks like a sullen teenager when she has to stand around and wait for things that have nothing to do with her immediate needs...
still has not cleaned her room. this is a record
isn't eating properly. with all this laziness you think uh-oh, getting fat. but no. i am five pounds less than usually. not good
is having way too much sex (hehe)
dishes it out but just can't take it
not doing the things that she should be doing to make her happy...why i don't know. yes i do. i'm being very BP at the moment.
still not driving...
not doing enough of her therapy. it is hard though, give me that. i mean the reading, i'm still going to appointments. i find the reading annoying.
my finer points clearly. i'm not going to sugar coat it. rob is lucky he has immense patience and he doesn't bore of me. ever. lol. because i see him almost everyday and i love it, and he keeps loving it too. gush gush. we sleepover and each other's houses most nights too, and it doesn't freak me out when he says things like, : "I can't wait to buy OUR house." I gently remind him I'm going back to Uni next year, but I see him in my future. we shall work it out. I don't know if I'll find someone who is a better ying to my yang, who can put up with the mood swings. and i am very happy when i am with him
GOOD THINGS:
i went back to yoga and used my new mat. it's awesome (the mat) and i miss it (the yoga)
and i am still very flexible!
i am working to mid-september (is that really good though?) at least i shall have money.
i have plans sorted but not finalized for the fall
amy is home and i have quit the captain blacks. we got to hang out this week, i missed her so.
i have the long weekend entirely off, all three days. yessss
i just got ma hair did. it looks good again
I have awesome clothes they make me happy. unfortunately, there is too many and they are on my floor. that's where they stay. for now.
i have refrained from buying more clothing/accessories for more than a week now! YAY! haha
i have found our park getting way too catty this year, so i am no longer participating with the personal details of MY life, or bashing other people. mostly.
...spending $40 EACH on your boss's gift is ridiculous, Kiss-Ass A-Team! (this is our term of endearment for the hardcore group of partners) and he doesn't even want a gift. 40 each, between 12 people, you do the math. ridiculous. my cut off is $30 and thats what i'm throwing in. le grr (they are hockey tix to a prime game).
I have gotten to wear my rockin shoes lots lately. my feet may hurt but i still loooove them so much. i am turning into one of THOSE girls. uh-oh.
whatever. you think girls in heels are sexy and you know it. i still wear normal underwear to bed. sometimes. and can take less than 15 mins to get ready
my buddy alex the photographer wants to do some pin up shots for me. BUT, i don't know if i can post them here, due to copyright/revealing his name. i don't know if thats ok with him. in the event this shoot should happen, i'm screwed with the not purchasing clothes thing because i will want a good set. ( new shoes? he heee )
my physical health is good. i am cleared of everything. i did the last uncomfortable doctor visit today. it wasn't so bad and i'm fine. hooray.
um yeah this could go on and on so i'll end it here.
NITE-O!,
NIHLY
the current Nihly is:
back to having trouble sleeping, and back to mounting levels of anxiety
a lazy friend (doesn't call enough it seems. feelin guilty)
being clingy
bored and lonely
watching too many movies and doing inside-things outside of work
pouts when she doesn't get her way
fights over stupid little things
looks like a sullen teenager when she has to stand around and wait for things that have nothing to do with her immediate needs...
still has not cleaned her room. this is a record
isn't eating properly. with all this laziness you think uh-oh, getting fat. but no. i am five pounds less than usually. not good
is having way too much sex (hehe)
dishes it out but just can't take it
not doing the things that she should be doing to make her happy...why i don't know. yes i do. i'm being very BP at the moment.
still not driving...
not doing enough of her therapy. it is hard though, give me that. i mean the reading, i'm still going to appointments. i find the reading annoying.
my finer points clearly. i'm not going to sugar coat it. rob is lucky he has immense patience and he doesn't bore of me. ever. lol. because i see him almost everyday and i love it, and he keeps loving it too. gush gush. we sleepover and each other's houses most nights too, and it doesn't freak me out when he says things like, : "I can't wait to buy OUR house." I gently remind him I'm going back to Uni next year, but I see him in my future. we shall work it out. I don't know if I'll find someone who is a better ying to my yang, who can put up with the mood swings. and i am very happy when i am with him
GOOD THINGS:
i went back to yoga and used my new mat. it's awesome (the mat) and i miss it (the yoga)
and i am still very flexible!
i am working to mid-september (is that really good though?) at least i shall have money.
i have plans sorted but not finalized for the fall
amy is home and i have quit the captain blacks. we got to hang out this week, i missed her so.
i have the long weekend entirely off, all three days. yessss
i just got ma hair did. it looks good again
I have awesome clothes they make me happy. unfortunately, there is too many and they are on my floor. that's where they stay. for now.
i have refrained from buying more clothing/accessories for more than a week now! YAY! haha
i have found our park getting way too catty this year, so i am no longer participating with the personal details of MY life, or bashing other people. mostly.
...spending $40 EACH on your boss's gift is ridiculous, Kiss-Ass A-Team! (this is our term of endearment for the hardcore group of partners) and he doesn't even want a gift. 40 each, between 12 people, you do the math. ridiculous. my cut off is $30 and thats what i'm throwing in. le grr (they are hockey tix to a prime game).
I have gotten to wear my rockin shoes lots lately. my feet may hurt but i still loooove them
so much. i am turning into one of THOSE girls. uh-oh.
whatever. you think girls in heels are sexy and you know it. i still wear normal underwear to bed. sometimes. and can take less than 15 mins to get ready
my buddy alex the photographer wants to do some pin up shots for me. BUT, i don't know if i can post them here, due to copyright/revealing his name. i don't know if thats ok with him. in the event this shoot should happen, i'm screwed with the not purchasing clothes thing because i will want a good set. ( new shoes? he heee )
my physical health is good. i am cleared of everything. i did the last uncomfortable doctor visit today. it wasn't so bad and i'm fine. hooray.
um yeah this could go on and on so i'll end it here.
NITE-O!,
NIHLY
curss:
That's quite a laundry list hun...both good and bad...nice to see you're still around here sometimes...try and concentrate on your health more please...both physical and mental...you were doing really good for awhile...don't let it slip...we'll talk soon...