nihixul

i have to learn how to not try to solve every problem in the world. i have to learn how to sit in my chair and let certain things happen. i have to learn to not be so damned protective.

for me, that isn't nearly as easy as it sounds. i want to make everyone happy, and that just isn't possible.

i don't want to become fully disillusioned

i can't decide whether i want to participate in this community or not. i love discussing things with people, including the people here, and i know to stay away from the current events forum, but too many times people get misunderstood, people don't think at all before they speak, or people just display their stupidity. honestly. maybe it's just because the community has gotten so...
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i am tired.

didn't get to watch the sg thing on mtv2.

too many people in aim chat.

staying up too late makes me quite ill.

hi. i am nihixul. i so feel like the new kid in class.

ok. i think i am "miffed" now. i don't really know how else to explain it. i know absolutely none of you guys know what i am referring to, but i have the feeling of being sold short. it sounds funny when said like that. oh well. maybe my opinion of myself with respect to how i treat people is just higher than it should...
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Ok, so I am going to assume that basically nobody reads this but sixsixty. The desktop (of elara) I submitted has been posted. (!) I know, I know, I am not a big photoshop freak, but hey, I like it.

Oh, I saw some anti-semitic graffiti in a stall on campus. That's sad. You would have thought that people here would be smart enough to...
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all right! i am back! who missed me?!?!?

huh?

yeah... of course i was gone! what?

i remember reading in a wired article that SG claimed to have more than 50% female membership. I don't buy it. Do a hookup search, with no constraints except female, then constrain it to only guys with pics. You get just over 200 girls and many, many more guys. I didn't want to post this in the forums, because people would flame me for attacking...
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today = awful

my room was hot when i woke up

i had to move everything from my office down six floors to my new office

i don't yet have a desk in that office

i am having serious doubts about my abilities in my area

i am having serious doubts about personal issues

i couldn't deal being around other people today in the office...
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I thought about writing a long post here regarding the penetration thread, but I won't. It's old. The only thing I will say is that it should have been moved to a private (and more importantly quickfire) conversation earlier. Arguing through message boards over something so heated as that is really difficult. I think an AIM chat would have settled things nicely. It is sad...
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