nightvixen

The stupidest thing I have ever done has something to do with a condom and nothing to do with sex. My ex... my then-boyfriend... was the most paranoid, insecure fucker on the planet. He was a sexual predator (I now know) who was constantly trying to manipulate and mind-fuck women into sucking him off. Because he treated women like objects, he assumed so did every other man, therefore I wasn't "allowed" to spend time alone with male friends, I wasn't "allowed" to drink or do drugs, I wasn't "allowed" to go to parties, etc. etc. I basically had no friends or life outside of him.

He was CONSTANTLY accusing me of cheating on him, even though I followed his fucking rules exactly. So one day he randomly offers to clean out my car and I agree because it's a mess. He suddenly stops, looks off into the distance, then storms inside. I go to see what the fuck pissed him off so much, and find a condom, out of the wrapper, on my car hood, that he must've found while cleaning.

For WEEKS he would demand to know that I had been cheating on him, he would dump me and then take me back, dump me and take me back again, it just, really, was the final thing that tore me away from him and made me get over him. At the time I was so confused and scared, I had no idea where the condom came from and I only wanted him to believe me and be with me again.

Now I see. It was his condom brand. He planted the condom there himself and then offered to clean my car so he could find it, and try to force me to admit to an act I had never committed, he distrusted me that much. And I fell for it. I wept and pleaded and screamed, I played in to his hand perfectly and I hate myself for it. He was such a fraud. I would to spit on him.

If you're ever in my area, feel free to stop in and see what my little shop of horrors can help you with... love you doll
xip