nightsky

finally, sweet relief! anyone ever suffer from ennui? loosely defined it is apathy. but i think it is an actual human (psychological?/emotional?/spiritual?/physical?) condition. and i feel myself coming out of it. the best way i can describe it is as being a spectator in your own life. living with no set goals or purpose; just living because you're not dead. let me tell you, it...
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i was looking through my favorite sg pics and i noticed something. a lot of asses. which is fine by me.

you know what though, that girl is not that great. i had to postpone plans we had because i had a family get together to go to. she was pissed. i was like what the fuck? it's not like i'm your boyfriend or something. but she insisted on being pissed at me about something i had no power to change. so i let her be...
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tonight i told a girl i was leaving her. not really only leaving her, but leaving the whole city. i slowly heard the (hope?) fade from her voice as we carried on our conversation. i think she always knew i wouldn't be in her life for a long time, but i think she thought she could make me stay. she's a great girl, but i...
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is it wrong to spend the entire day in your house? i'm try to save money, so instead of having an even semi-active social life i spend my time indoors. today i finished a detective novel and then started an "anita blake: vampire hunter" novel. i read a lot. i also watch a lot of tv. today i watched back to back buffy, at least...
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i am an insomniac. i have been since i was a little kid. technically a "slow sleeper". tonights experiment will include tylenol pm. it can leave you a little groggy, but man will it put you out. i was at one time addicted to the things. i couldn't figure out why i was so sluggish and depressive. but then again, i have never been known...
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turning thirty one is sooo much cooler than turning thirty. thirty packs all this anxiety in one small punch. but thirty one is easy like sunday morning. i don't like to judge my life based on years anyhow, but it seems that there are some that are hard to avoid. my general attitude toward new thirtysomethings is that they take themselves as a whole way...
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can anyone love bjork as much as me?

Did you know that if you take a few melatonin tabs before you go to bed you will have crazy dreams? At least i do. Melatonin is a chemical your brain makes that triggers your "time to shut off" mechanism in your brain. So don't take it too often or your brain will start to stop making it and it will be hard to go...
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