Every day I struggle with my mental health. It is how my brain wired itself to deal with the traumas I endured from a very young age. I help myself by being on medication, having a healthy support system that includes a wonderful psychiatrist and therapist. I have a partner who is patient and kind through my ups and downs, for which I am extremely grateful for. Even though I have this support, I admit some days are darker where I feel like I can’t get out. I become quiet and more reserved. My bubbly personality goes into a little jar that I put on a shelf to retrieve for later. Internally and logically I know that life is good and beautiful, but I can’t seem to climb out. When my partner looks into my eyes I know he sees my silent sadness. He doesn’t judge me, just showers me with love, comfort and affection.. all of which I so desperately need. Don’t worry about me I tell him with tears in my eyes.. I’ll keep fighting, I will never throw in the towel... I will never leave. I will always communicate and be open, because I know that if allowed to run rampant and unchecked, depression can be a silent killer and I won’t let that happen. Remember: Your mental health is a priority, Your physical health is a priority, Your happiness is a priority, Your self-care is a priority, Your existence is a priority.
If you suffer from depression don’t let it be your silent killer, speak up and seek help. There is someone who will listen. Help is available 24/7.
The National Suicide Prevention Hotline:
1-800-273-8255
