There are moments in our lives where a sudden wave of clarity will hit us, and for some reason, everything makes sense. These moments, though not often, can be life changing if you take the opportunity to see things without bias or spite.
This morning, I felt a small part of my heart fall to the floor. I watched the love of my life walk into the air port, backpack in tow and a drum peddle at his side. I wanted so badly to run after him and scream, "No, stay here with me! Don't leave!" And on the inside, I was. But, people have to do what is right for them, we all have lives that need to be lived, and his life is not here not now but hopefully someday it will be. The selfish side of me wants to throw a fit until he's here, or I'm there but I know better. The rational side of me says that things will work out in time, and all I need to do is be patient and see what happens whatever will be, will be. And somewhere in between stands a woman crying partially because her love is going back home, away from her and mostly because she knows she made things that way.
I drove to work, tears in my eyes and a sense of loss filling my being but with hope in my heart, and a smile deep inside of me. True love lasts forever this is something I've always believed. And somewhere between the bypass and my exit, everything just made sense. I realized that getting down on myself every day about things isn't going to make them better. I am not a terrible, unlovable person. I am a good person, one who's made many mistakes that have been life changing, but at the core, my heart beats strong and is filled with love, joy, and hope. I realized that things will be alright, as long as I believe and keep trying to do my part to make things right. I just need to keep fighting the good fight, and not let life's minor complications, such as distance and longing, destroy any progress that I have made.
There is a man who is roughly 1500 miles from me that I love more than I ever thought it was possible to love another human being. And while he does not make me, he makes me more than I am by myself. He makes me want to try harder, dig deeper, and fight with everything that's in me for what I believe in. He makes me a better person, and I'm better just for knowing him and having him in my life. To that man, I am forever grateful for your presence in my life. You have done more for me than you could ever know, and I hope that someday we will continue what we started and live the life we always dreamt of living together. You truly are my best friend, and the love of my life. No matter where life leads us, no matter what the distance between us, and no matter how long between each embrace I will always love you, and I will always be right there with you, as you are with me, as long as you keep me in your heart. Thank you for loving me.
This morning, I felt a small part of my heart fall to the floor. I watched the love of my life walk into the air port, backpack in tow and a drum peddle at his side. I wanted so badly to run after him and scream, "No, stay here with me! Don't leave!" And on the inside, I was. But, people have to do what is right for them, we all have lives that need to be lived, and his life is not here not now but hopefully someday it will be. The selfish side of me wants to throw a fit until he's here, or I'm there but I know better. The rational side of me says that things will work out in time, and all I need to do is be patient and see what happens whatever will be, will be. And somewhere in between stands a woman crying partially because her love is going back home, away from her and mostly because she knows she made things that way.
I drove to work, tears in my eyes and a sense of loss filling my being but with hope in my heart, and a smile deep inside of me. True love lasts forever this is something I've always believed. And somewhere between the bypass and my exit, everything just made sense. I realized that getting down on myself every day about things isn't going to make them better. I am not a terrible, unlovable person. I am a good person, one who's made many mistakes that have been life changing, but at the core, my heart beats strong and is filled with love, joy, and hope. I realized that things will be alright, as long as I believe and keep trying to do my part to make things right. I just need to keep fighting the good fight, and not let life's minor complications, such as distance and longing, destroy any progress that I have made.
There is a man who is roughly 1500 miles from me that I love more than I ever thought it was possible to love another human being. And while he does not make me, he makes me more than I am by myself. He makes me want to try harder, dig deeper, and fight with everything that's in me for what I believe in. He makes me a better person, and I'm better just for knowing him and having him in my life. To that man, I am forever grateful for your presence in my life. You have done more for me than you could ever know, and I hope that someday we will continue what we started and live the life we always dreamt of living together. You truly are my best friend, and the love of my life. No matter where life leads us, no matter what the distance between us, and no matter how long between each embrace I will always love you, and I will always be right there with you, as you are with me, as long as you keep me in your heart. Thank you for loving me.
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