so...life... i finally got my ex (whom i'm still legally married to) off her ass and filing necessary paperwork. thank fuck. only took 3 years. i will finally be divorced and debt freeeeeee!!!!!!
on the work front... half of our staff quit or is putting in their notices so i got a double promotion by default.... under a gm i dont want to work for. this also comes at a time where she's extra squirrely because our regional manager just got fired.
so who was the lucky guy to be there when the new regional manager came in? this guy. lol... but it seems like this dude is legit... he's the first upper management in the company that has ever had an actual conversation with me. in his words "you're not going anywhere... you're one of the most consistent salespeople in the state... and you deserved the promotion wether you feel like you only got it by default or not"
so the guy is good at keeping morale up if anything.... so we'll see. but i definitely told him we are not happy and certainly dont feel secure in our jobs. without directly naming names i made it pretty clear that we all want our gm gone.
on the art/ tattooing front... well... i think i'm getting better but its hard to say without much feedback from other artists i respect and look up to. at this point i'm just trying to get to events.... be social... work hard... and not be a pain in the ass annoying groupie to the tattoo artists that i'd love to learn from. so i'm practicing different styles... without copying. trying to just do what i do and hope i find a few things i'm good at. trying out different materials and media... that will never go by the wayside. i know that if i just keep creating and being involved that good things will happen. in the mean time i just keep doing everything i can to make my life more stable... and to have fun.... because life is so effing short.
don't believe me? lol... you will when your "new" car is suddenly almost ten years old.... and you've had your favorite jeans for 15. wait till all your friends kids start going to kindergarten.... shit some are shopping for college. before i start to ramble too much (too late) ...i just want to say to my friends that have social anxiety and other issues.... it really boils down to this.... you dont have time for that crap.... baby steps and get your life back. now. quit waiting till tomorrow. it gets easier every time.... but only if you dont overwhelm yourself with it. if the old crew makes you nervous.... find new friends.... if the old hangouts make you feel like you're choking.... move away from all those negative memories.... move away from that sadness. people start their lives over every day.... and its almost always really hard.... but they do it.
love you all. <3 don't be strangers
on the work front... half of our staff quit or is putting in their notices so i got a double promotion by default.... under a gm i dont want to work for. this also comes at a time where she's extra squirrely because our regional manager just got fired.
so who was the lucky guy to be there when the new regional manager came in? this guy. lol... but it seems like this dude is legit... he's the first upper management in the company that has ever had an actual conversation with me. in his words "you're not going anywhere... you're one of the most consistent salespeople in the state... and you deserved the promotion wether you feel like you only got it by default or not"
so the guy is good at keeping morale up if anything.... so we'll see. but i definitely told him we are not happy and certainly dont feel secure in our jobs. without directly naming names i made it pretty clear that we all want our gm gone.
on the art/ tattooing front... well... i think i'm getting better but its hard to say without much feedback from other artists i respect and look up to. at this point i'm just trying to get to events.... be social... work hard... and not be a pain in the ass annoying groupie to the tattoo artists that i'd love to learn from. so i'm practicing different styles... without copying. trying to just do what i do and hope i find a few things i'm good at. trying out different materials and media... that will never go by the wayside. i know that if i just keep creating and being involved that good things will happen. in the mean time i just keep doing everything i can to make my life more stable... and to have fun.... because life is so effing short.
don't believe me? lol... you will when your "new" car is suddenly almost ten years old.... and you've had your favorite jeans for 15. wait till all your friends kids start going to kindergarten.... shit some are shopping for college. before i start to ramble too much (too late) ...i just want to say to my friends that have social anxiety and other issues.... it really boils down to this.... you dont have time for that crap.... baby steps and get your life back. now. quit waiting till tomorrow. it gets easier every time.... but only if you dont overwhelm yourself with it. if the old crew makes you nervous.... find new friends.... if the old hangouts make you feel like you're choking.... move away from all those negative memories.... move away from that sadness. people start their lives over every day.... and its almost always really hard.... but they do it.
love you all. <3 don't be strangers