nickherdmann

The last few days have been filled with thought that i'm not ready to share with you yet.I will however share this... I'm still legally married to a woman that i havent seen in over two years. The relationship has been over for three. the details arent necessary at this point but this day does have a particular significance... it's the day i knew that there was nothing more that i could do.

I am trying to build a new life after much difficulty (i take with me the permanent physical damage), but there are still things from my old life that need to be wrapped up... so i wrote her a message and i'm curious if it was the right thing to do. Here is most of that message.

It's difficult to pretend that you dont cross my mind every day but i dont think of the hurt anymore. It's more a reflection from outside... seperate but clear....as if i'm watching a butterfly trapped in a jar...fragile and beautiful. I wanted to thank you for giving me the most cherished memories that I posess. They are the jewels of my life.
let us finish cleaning up the mess we created so that we can flourish again in our seperate lives...so that we can be truly beautiful and free. I love you and still defend you to this day. you will be my friend always....so lets tough it out one last time and set eachother free.



I'm just at a loss as to what it takes to get through to her to stop running away from responsibility and for once in her life to finish what she started.