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I'm so tired of worrying. I'm constantly thinking about all the things I have to get done and how I'm gonna do it. I can't ever seem to get ahead enough to break free from it. My top two worries are *finances and my top worry *my boyfriend.

I really need a car, I hate having to depend on my boyfriend for rides plus I know it bothers him to always be taking me everywhere. I have been saving, but it just doesn't seem to accumulate fast enough. And I'm such a cheapskate!! For example: I don't buy myself clothes unless I have to, and even then I wait until they're marked down to the lowest they could be (75%), then I wait until there is an additional off sale items (40%), and then ontop of that I get my employee discount (25%). I've cut back on everything, even quitting makeup except an occasional mascara as to not look sleepy.

And my biggest worry always plagues me. I'm so afraid my boyfriend will stop loving me. All I want is just to make him happy, really. Every day at work I think about what I could do today to make him happy, something he would like and be pleased about. Just little things. It's not that he's hard to please or is hard to make happy, I just worry.