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I've gone dye crazy!! I'm addicted to changing my hair now. It's still pumpkin, but I think after Halloween is up I'm going to dye it bright bright red. Then I want to let the roots (dark brown, nearly black) grow out my natural color about an inch or so with the flaming red, and then cut my hair short into a pixie cut with just my natural color. I've never gotten a really short haircut so this will be interesting.

So I saw the nemises at Starbucks today. I finally got to talk to her since I found out about *the secret*. I've never felt so enthusiastic about wanting to jack someone's face up before. Also new. She handled herself well, apologized with no lip. I was actually kinda let down, I expected to go to jail tonight. At least I would have gone out in style, I had just got off from work and was all spiffied up in my buisness suite. Anyways, I also happened to notice the painted-on beauty mark she ever so carefully dotted on her cheek...oddly enough in the same exact spot my natural one is. I don't know if it honestly was a coincidence, or a psychotic expression of envy. There also were two hang-up calls while we smoked the hookah tonight. I hope she cries herself to sleep tonight.

I'm getting meaner every day, but I'm glad. People deserve it. I'm just so tired of trying to please everyone my entire life. That was my childhood role between the feuding divorced parents. I've stopped taking crap from my father, he can be pissed if he wants, he's no longer my Dad anymore-he never earned that title to begin with.

In the past day or two I've also found out my emotions are WAY more sensitive towards people I care about, I take everything that comes from deeply to heart. I think this is a small bit of maturity long overdue. I've decided who is important to me now, and forget everyone else-they're not important anymore. This has been slowly creeping up on me for a while though, even just the smallest details such as not changing into more presentable clothes to run to the store real quick when I wasn't expecting to go. I'm tired of impressing the pubic, all they've given me were higher taxes and haughty women driving SUVs blocking my right hand turns.

I hate women, worse then men. Feminism should be a punishable crime. Give a girl an inch, and that's all the length left on her skirt. Pop, Smack, gum and lipgloss obsessions. We're heathons, and becoming more liberated everyday. This is very very bad. I don't think I'll ever vote for a female president, I just don't believe they should be in power. I wish women still had to cover themselves in public, hair neatly tucked away under a scarf or bonnet, makeupless and mute. And all you people disagreeing would ask...Do I? No, I don't. I enjoy all the sheers and laces and sparkles any girl does. That is exactly my point.