Why are YOU wanting to go to a head shop?
Why did you buy that pipe? I thought you said you were done with weed. If you're gonna get into drugs I WILL leave you. You said I'm not responsible enough to go with you to a head shop, as thought I would pliantly follow a stranger's heckling to "shoot up heroin". A STRANGER!? Do you honestly think me that cowardly? That weak? That passionless for my integrity?
Yes, I drank. I CHOSE to drink after years and years of not drinking, through endless opportunities to drink. I always said no. I CHOSE to drink, and I'm sorry you are so hug up on that idea that you "can't feel like a man anymore" around me. GET OVER IT!! I chose it, I did it, and I've chosen to not do it again! No one is going to sway me from that choice. I'm tired of trying to make you happy with my past, with something that is done and over with, corrected, and YOU WILL NOT EVER FIND A GIRLFRIEND WITH A PERFECT LIFE! I'm human... I love you, even with ALL your flaws. Why can't you just love me back? That's all I want. Why do you have to punish me all the time for my imperfections? For imperfections I've fixed without sway?
Next, yes I smoked weed...with you only. You, someone I TRUST, not a stranger, not someone who's a despairing pot head that just wanted a buddy to get strung out with. I CHOSE to do it, to try it so I knew what it was like. You asked me to get really high, so I did it again-for you. And all you can do is accuse me of "liking it" as though the experience weed gave me was a greatest joy in my life. IT'S NOT. Wanna know what captivates me? What REALLY brings me joy? Being loved. That's all I want, but you are too wrapped up in finding my faults to simply love me. How can you love someone while constantly gouging at them with sharp words, dredging up long-retired conversations and events just to keep the wounds fresh and painful? I told you last time I smoked that I decided not to do it again. I'm not, so don't again ask because I'll only turn you down.
I'm not comfortable with the lifestyle of alcohol and drugs. And I'm not going to let myself, nor would I want to. Wanna know the real reason I wanted to go? The ONLY reason? ...the reason you didn't ask me or let me explain, instead just throw insults to my ethics. You didn't tell me why you were going, so I assumed it was something to do with weed since you bought that pipe not too long ago. I wanted to go and make sure you wern't trying to buy another pipe or bong or anything that deals with weed. I wanted to talk you out of it because I'm done with it and I don't want you to do it anymore either. Do you want to know something I don't thim I've told you about why Micah and I broke up? He went to visit his mother and brought back a joint. He wanted us to smoke it together just so we'd know what it was like. He told me he didn't want to do anymore after that, just that one joint. I got pissed that he even asked that of me and destroyed it, making him mad. Now look at him. I will NOT put up with that. That's one of the main reasons I broke up with him, because he was turing into a person I didn't want as my husband and father of my children. And what about my smoking weed with you? I did it because I didn't see you really wanting to do it, I could tell you were honestly just wanting an experimental round. Now I'm starting to question that, and although my world would end-I will leave you if you start up on drugs.
One last thing, I honestly don't smoke cigarettes. So please quit accusing me of that too.
Why did you buy that pipe? I thought you said you were done with weed. If you're gonna get into drugs I WILL leave you. You said I'm not responsible enough to go with you to a head shop, as thought I would pliantly follow a stranger's heckling to "shoot up heroin". A STRANGER!? Do you honestly think me that cowardly? That weak? That passionless for my integrity?
Yes, I drank. I CHOSE to drink after years and years of not drinking, through endless opportunities to drink. I always said no. I CHOSE to drink, and I'm sorry you are so hug up on that idea that you "can't feel like a man anymore" around me. GET OVER IT!! I chose it, I did it, and I've chosen to not do it again! No one is going to sway me from that choice. I'm tired of trying to make you happy with my past, with something that is done and over with, corrected, and YOU WILL NOT EVER FIND A GIRLFRIEND WITH A PERFECT LIFE! I'm human... I love you, even with ALL your flaws. Why can't you just love me back? That's all I want. Why do you have to punish me all the time for my imperfections? For imperfections I've fixed without sway?
Next, yes I smoked weed...with you only. You, someone I TRUST, not a stranger, not someone who's a despairing pot head that just wanted a buddy to get strung out with. I CHOSE to do it, to try it so I knew what it was like. You asked me to get really high, so I did it again-for you. And all you can do is accuse me of "liking it" as though the experience weed gave me was a greatest joy in my life. IT'S NOT. Wanna know what captivates me? What REALLY brings me joy? Being loved. That's all I want, but you are too wrapped up in finding my faults to simply love me. How can you love someone while constantly gouging at them with sharp words, dredging up long-retired conversations and events just to keep the wounds fresh and painful? I told you last time I smoked that I decided not to do it again. I'm not, so don't again ask because I'll only turn you down.
I'm not comfortable with the lifestyle of alcohol and drugs. And I'm not going to let myself, nor would I want to. Wanna know the real reason I wanted to go? The ONLY reason? ...the reason you didn't ask me or let me explain, instead just throw insults to my ethics. You didn't tell me why you were going, so I assumed it was something to do with weed since you bought that pipe not too long ago. I wanted to go and make sure you wern't trying to buy another pipe or bong or anything that deals with weed. I wanted to talk you out of it because I'm done with it and I don't want you to do it anymore either. Do you want to know something I don't thim I've told you about why Micah and I broke up? He went to visit his mother and brought back a joint. He wanted us to smoke it together just so we'd know what it was like. He told me he didn't want to do anymore after that, just that one joint. I got pissed that he even asked that of me and destroyed it, making him mad. Now look at him. I will NOT put up with that. That's one of the main reasons I broke up with him, because he was turing into a person I didn't want as my husband and father of my children. And what about my smoking weed with you? I did it because I didn't see you really wanting to do it, I could tell you were honestly just wanting an experimental round. Now I'm starting to question that, and although my world would end-I will leave you if you start up on drugs.
One last thing, I honestly don't smoke cigarettes. So please quit accusing me of that too.